A month ago

So it's been about a month since I've written anything. I really need to be more proactive in what I'm doing on here.

Let's see...Dr. Oscar and I have been hanging out. Last week I went to his place...we played golf and then he cooked dinner. We ended up in the hot tub that night...and well you can imagine where things went from there. It was weired. I'm not sure thing with him are really going to go anywhere. But I know I have a good friend out of it. He sort of kept talking about his life and how he thinks he's just going to live until the boys are 18 and then take off and do what he wants. He has no interest in getting serious with someone until they are older. So pretty much him and I are just a fling which is okay I guess...I don't know. I've learned that old than 40, divorced with children is a no go. It just doesn't work.

I've been hanging out a lot with my friend Dan lately. He's awesome. I really wish we could be more than friends but he is still trying to get over his ex and dating a bunch of other girls. He's really turned into a great friend though. We go to the Bucs games together we have been going to random events together. But in the end we always end up with one of his girls. It's weird. I mean on paper is the perfect guy but we don't have that connection...I don't know if that makes sense. Maybe in time. Whatever at least I have a great friend out of the whole situation that is fun. :)

I met this guy Adam out on Halloween. He was adorable. He's a bit younger than I like (26). He's going to make a great husband one day. Comes from a good family. Is working on a career. Is good looking. He's a bit cocky but not too much. I don't we went to the movies the other night and then out to a few bars. He ended up crashing at my place...I'm not sure I liked that. I think he's just looking for a hook up at the moment. Which is cool. But I have plenty of those. I think I'll do one more date with him and if it still feels a little too physical then I'm going to sort of lay off.

I was talking to this guy Kevin online for a few weeks. We finally met last week and had an absolute blast. It was a little awkward at first but by the end of the night I really think we hit it off and connected. He smoked which is a lot of fun to know. He's an art director of a couple magazines. Which is kind of a cool gig. I'm not sure where that's going to go. I ended up crashing at his place the night we went out but we both literally passed out. Nothing physical at all. We were supposed to get together on Sunday night but I sort of had a day date that went longer than anticipated.

My day date was with Oliver. Oh Oliver. I really felt like we had a connection beyond most I've had lately. We went to see the Bucs game at a local bar and then we went to the movies/dinner and then he came back to my place to hangout for a bit. He's fucking hot. I mean he's so good looking that the girls at the bar we went to watch the game at kept coming over and staring at him. I'm not sure if that is normal for him or what but it was totally awesome in my head because he was all about me. We were going to hangout last night but I've been having issues with my car and needed to come up to my dads for a few days. We are supposed to hangout tomorrow night on his side of town. We shall see how that goes. A little about him. He's 32, from southern Cali, owns his own home painting business. He went to school for graphic arts and he is an artist for sure. He plays basketball and flag football weekly which I think is awesome. He seems like a really chill lets just stay home kind of guy which I'm totally up for at the moment. I'm trying to get back into shape and going to the bars every night isn't really conducive for that. So I think he may be a good change of pace...if he's as into me as I think I could be about him.

Okay I think that's enough of an update for now.

She's back. .

Okay so I was super bummed about Ronnie for a few days...and then I got over it real quick when I went back to the dating lots of fun guys at once. Soooo here's the update.

Baseball Rob: So I met Rob in south Tampa last week and we had a good time. He's incredibly good looking and is in pretty good shape...duh...he's a strength coach for a major league baseball team. I thought we had a great time, had dinner, had a few drinks and then things went sort of silly. My friend Laura met up with us and that sort of pissed Rob off. I didn't exactly invite her but I told her what I was doing and then she showed up...not my fault. Anyway, I got totally shit house (a big no no on a first date) and we sort of ended up going back to his house...it's all sort of a blur from there. I think it's safe to say that I am not going to say I doubt him and I will connect again. He keeps texting but I'm not really sure I'm going to pursue since we did get so shitty on our first date...not exactly a great first impression or the way we want things to go.

Dr. Oscar: So I started dating Oscar several months ago...probably 5 or 6 months ago and we only went out once. Well he randomly texted me last week and we sort of just picked up where we left off. So I went with Dr. Oscar to a party in his neighborhood on Saturday night. We really had a great time. I honestly think he had to have been nervous on our first date because he was an absolute blast this weekend! So the party was an Oktoberfest party that his neighbor was throwing...let me set this up for you...the party way on the golf course, wine cellar, band playing, lots of people, great food...really an awesome party...reminded me a lot of parties my parents use to throw. Anyway so we are having a great time and then he was like let's go spy on the babysitter (yeah he has two boys) so we walk down the golf course and spy on the kids. They appeared to be in bed. So I think that was his ploy to get me alone, in the dark just the two of us...duh hence the get alone thing. So we're chatting it up...having a great conversation...and then we had a moment...and he took full advantage of it. We kissed our first kiss. It was really sweet...he was adorable and giddy after the kiss. So we hung out for a bit longer and then called it a night. We had a serious make out session at my car before I left. So Dr. Oscar is in Boston for the next week having heart surgery and then staying with his parents the remainder of the week so they can nurse him back to health. I really hope things kick start with him. :)

Jolly Todd: I really have no idea what to call him. He's this really happy man in his late 30's...has a kid...his wife passed away a couple years ago. So anyway I met Todd on Eharm...he's actually the first guy I have met from Eharm. So we went and had a drink last week. It went a lot better than I imagined...I thought he was going to be sort of a bore and not really my type...but he's adorable...has his shit together. A lot of fun. Found out last night that he smokes the weed...which is awesome. Anyway him and I are going to the Rays game tonight...we shall see how that goes. He is the least attractive out of the men I'm dating but he really is a lot of fun and there is some serious potential.

Had a random one night stand with some random guy that lives down the block a few weeks ago...I have his name in my phone but off the top of my head I can't remember it. Not really proud of that moment...it was the first true one night stand that I have had in years...it was kind of silly. I don't know why I even mention it...just trying to keep this whole thing real..

Um...I think that's it...for now...more to come. :)

Fucking seriously?

So Mr. Ronnie is moving out of state in two months. What the fuck. I find this awesome man who makes me happy and appears to get me and now he's gone...poof. What a sick joke.

So with that said I picked back up online. I am meeting the first new guy in a few months tonight for drinks. His name is Rob. He works with baseball teams as a therapist or something.

UGH...Here we go again on the man search.

fuck my life.

:)

So it's 8:15 and I'm about to leave to head to Ronnies for the night. I really didn't think I was going to get to see him this week so it's a nice surprise that I'm heading over later. His daughter is in town so I'm not going to head over until she's in bed. He mentioned tonight that he and his ex decided that nobody meets the little lady until they are damn near engaged. I think that's a good idea...I would be shocked if it were any other way.

So now that I'm dating someone I'm actually interested in the boys are coming out of the wood work. Dave from college has been texting me lately. Hooman just texted me tonight to see if I wanted to do wine and a movie tonight. Chris is back in the picture because we ran into each other the other night at a concert so he wanted to see a movie tonight. Rob texted me last night to see if I wanted to do dinner tonight. Freakin what the crap...why can't they come around when I'm not interested in someone!

Okay well it's kind of flattering that so many guys are knocking at the door...but I could go without the distractions!

Ron, Ronnie, Ronald.

So it's been a nutty few weeks with work and dating. But I have some time and I'd like to play catch up with what's going on.

So Ron is still number one. We've hung out a few more times...I happened to be around at the right (or wrong) time and met his mom last week. We had the most fantastic date the other night...we went and saw The Black Keys and Kings Of Leon. He is the best. I really do hope things continue on the path that they are. We currently are on a once a week hanging out sort of schedule. He's been working a lot (he wanted to fill his time with work since he was single and didn't have anything else to do)...he's been also spending a bit of time with his family...which I love. He made a comment the other day that I was made for him...like a special order. I thought that was the sweetest thing a man has said to me. Yes, I'm smitten. But I'm being cautious with him...I don't to put it all out there just to get hurt. He does say he's looking to get married again when the time is right. He wants two kids. I think he wants a stay at home wife...which is something I could be all about if I could still do makeup and volunteering on the side.

Okay yeah see total new mind set...talking family shit now. Weird.

Ron is taking the lead.

So it's been a couple weeks since I've written and several things have happened. I sort of stopped chatting it up with Chris. We just sort of stopped talking...it was driving me nuts that he does is sit around the house all day and do nothing. He doesn't appear to be looking to do anything with himself and I can't have that in my life. If I date unmotivated people it generally makes me unmotivated. So he's out...for now.

I did meet Ron a few weeks ago. We met on match.com...duh. He's 38, a pilot, and handsome!! He's divorced and has a 3 year old daughter. He's really fantastic...but we all know that's what I think of all of them in the beginning. We are doing date three tonight. Date one was dinner and a few drinks, date two was dinner and lots of drinks...we were supposed to go to the movies but we didn't make it. We got hammered and really had a blast. He's a lot of fun. Tonight is low key...pizza, wine and a movie at his place. We have also been doing the video chat thing...first time I've really done that with someone I'm dating...soooo fun. Okay so I think Ron is eventually looking to get married again...he made a comment that he's on all the sites because he doesn't want to screw around and wants to find someone.

This would normally make me run but things have changed a bit in my mind. I've been spending a lot of time with my sister, her husband and their daughter. I'm falling in love with the idea of being a wife and mom. But I want to make sure I find the right man...I don't ever want to be a single mom or divorced. I think I'm going to sort of only date the ones that are looking for long term...cool it with the "fun" guys who aren't going to get serious anytime soon.

I don't know...we shall see.

Another creepy email.

A proposition

I just want to run something by you here, I'm not sure if you'll be interested at all. I’m a submissive. I’m not sure if you know what that means, but I like to do stuff for people. Nothing sexual. Just stuff like me doing your dishes, laundry, cleaning your house, etc. Would you be interested in that at all?