do they sense this shit or what?!

Had the most fantastic couples day with Mr. Mark yesterday. We went Halloween shopping, had lunch, grabbed a drink, went to a movie, rrelaxed for a biit, went to dinner then had a nice evening. It was the first day I reaklly felt like a compatible relationship. I've been smiling all day. I'm srarting to let my guard down and potentially let the feelinggs thing happen.

So we just got off the phone for the evening and I have a fucking text from my ex Ass Hole Todd. The only man I've ever been in love with Todd. The guy I completely lost my shit over started to see a shrink Todd. Hejust texted to say hi. WTF is that?

Kind of want to throw up.

24 hours and singing a different tune.

So I was annoyed yesterday with Mr. Mark but knowing he just landed in Tampa makes me a very happy girl. I can't wait to see him tomorrow night. I have a big smike just thinking about his snuggles. He called me sweetie this mornimng which was a first. I love when the pet names start.

On a side note I called Blake back today and he didn't answer or call me back. My guess he's a bit pissed I didn't go out last night.

Ugh annoyed

So I'm kind of annoyed with Mr. Mark at rhe moment. He's in LA and I didn't hear from him all day except this morning when he woke up. I texted him at 5 and then again at 10:30 when I was going to bed. I think I'm so annoyed that it's 2 in the a.m. and I'm awake. He's even updated his facebook so I know he's sober enough to use technology. I feel like things are still too new to say I'm annoyed. I kind of wished I would have hung out with Artsy Blake. I may call Blake tomorrow and see if he wants to hang ouy. Lame.

L Bomb!

So Mr. Mark and I went to the UCF/UM game in Orlando this weekend. Had so mmuch fun. Met a few of his friends. we spent the night at his friends house. We really had a blast. We got shit tanked. At the bar I mentioned that a friend asked me to go to Halloween Horror Nights...he thought it was a great idea until he found out the friend was a dood. He said he didn't like that. I said good answer. :o) In a drunken mess he called me his girlfriend and then he started sayinghow he loves everything about me which then turned into "yeah I love you", Um...I froze. I actually just got butterflies in my tummy. Not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing. I adore the shit out of him so we shall see. He leaves for L.A. in the morning. Can't wait for him to get back.

A few days away..

So I'm spending the next few days out of town (at my parents last night heading to Gainesville tonight). It's good to get away from life for a few. Things with Mark are about the same. My friend Nick invited me to go to Halloween Horror Nights with him on Sunday night but I'm not sure if I should go or not...I'd be kind of pissed if Mark went with another chick...but I'm not sure if that's how he feels. I kind of want to ask him but at the same time I don't want to make things weird. Last night he asked me what I was going to be for Halloween...I thought our costumes were going to be a couples costume so now I'm super confused. He wants to go to some party in downtown Tampa...I'd like to go to my friends party in Clearwater...we'll see how that goes. I may just go to my friends without him.

Mark and I are going to the UCF/UM game on Saturday together in Orlando. I just so happened to be in the area for a wedding makeup on Saturday afternoon...so we'll see how that goes. I think I get to meet some of his friends. I guess this will help me decided what the crap is going on. If he just acts like we are friends around his friends I'm done with trying to make this into something it's not. I'll call it great sex with someone who likes to take me out to do fun things and that's it. I'll start hanging out with other doods at that point.

0kay we'll see what happens.

Too much thought...

Things with Mark are good...I think. I have no idea how to do the I think I'm in a relationship but not really sure but kind of want it but wouldn't be totally bummed if it ended tomorrow thing. Mark is in Miami for a couple of days with his friends for a football game. Of course since he's with the friends I wasn't invited because we haven't hit that status yet...I think. He met up with me and a few of my friends on Friday night after the U2 concert. I thought his friends and mine were all going to meet up at one place but that didn't happened...they "went home". Or so he says. Who knows. I kind of feel like the stray cat. What a horrible way to feel. I think it's like he really enjoys the company of me his stray but who really shows off a stray cat?? Nobody. I mean if people come over and see the cat that's one thing but you don't go out of your way to talk about it and certainly aren't taking pics and bragging to your friends about. That's how I feel. I was talking to my sister about it earlier...she said that if I knew what the relationship currently was that I wouldn't be interested any longer. Not sure if I agree...but I know I don't totally disagree. I mean I guess if he was throwing himeself at me and inviting me everywhere then I'd probably be over it. But since thre is still so much to learn about him and he hasn't shown me all his cards as of yet he still has my interst. Having amazing sex doesn't hurt either. Can I just mention how increadible the sex is...I mean wowzer. I don't think I'll ever date a younger man...period. Having someone older who has been with women and knows a womans body is fantastic. The fact that he has an insane body doesn't hurt either. I really can't keep my hands off of him. He's inspired me to start working out....I kind of have been slacking the past few days but I ran 10 miles on Thursday...I'm going to run for a bit tomorrow. Mr. Mark get's back from Miami on Tuesday...I hope to see him Tuesday evening becasue I'm heading out of town on Wednesday.

On a side note...I met a guy on a shoot on Friday. Super artistic, musician scruffy guy. Sexy big curly red hair, glasses, facial hair...kind of dirty. He was totally feeling it. He called me Friday night to see if I wanted to hang out but of course I didn't. I am thinking about giving him a ring tomorrow and see what's up...maybe meet up...not sure yet. I kind of feel like I'd be doing something behind Marks back but at the same time we aren't "in a relationship" so what the crap should I care. I don't have a clue what he's doing in Miami...who he's with etc.

Okay going to call it a night.

facebook status update

Miami was fantastic! Mark and I went and saw Zombieland on Tuesday night. The movie was okay but the time was great. We had an amazing wednesdaymorning. The sex is insane. So today we were having our usual texting fun. He asked me if I was going to change my status from single. I thought it was funny and awesome. So I changed it. We are supposed to meet up after the U2 show with Reese tomorrow...can't wait to see how that goes.

It's a good life.

I'm in Miami for the weekend with Mr. Mark. He's such a sexy bitch I can't handle it. We're in Miami for a few days. We drove down together Friday morning. We went out for drinks and dinner last night. He's absolutely fantastic. 9 can't keep my hands off him...I just want to fuck him non stop...so far so good on that front. Mr. Mark is at a football game right now...I'm at the hotel. I had networking event earlier. I can't wait until her gets back. Meow.