Too much thought...

Things with Mark are good...I think. I have no idea how to do the I think I'm in a relationship but not really sure but kind of want it but wouldn't be totally bummed if it ended tomorrow thing. Mark is in Miami for a couple of days with his friends for a football game. Of course since he's with the friends I wasn't invited because we haven't hit that status yet...I think. He met up with me and a few of my friends on Friday night after the U2 concert. I thought his friends and mine were all going to meet up at one place but that didn't happened...they "went home". Or so he says. Who knows. I kind of feel like the stray cat. What a horrible way to feel. I think it's like he really enjoys the company of me his stray but who really shows off a stray cat?? Nobody. I mean if people come over and see the cat that's one thing but you don't go out of your way to talk about it and certainly aren't taking pics and bragging to your friends about. That's how I feel. I was talking to my sister about it earlier...she said that if I knew what the relationship currently was that I wouldn't be interested any longer. Not sure if I agree...but I know I don't totally disagree. I mean I guess if he was throwing himeself at me and inviting me everywhere then I'd probably be over it. But since thre is still so much to learn about him and he hasn't shown me all his cards as of yet he still has my interst. Having amazing sex doesn't hurt either. Can I just mention how increadible the sex is...I mean wowzer. I don't think I'll ever date a younger man...period. Having someone older who has been with women and knows a womans body is fantastic. The fact that he has an insane body doesn't hurt either. I really can't keep my hands off of him. He's inspired me to start working out....I kind of have been slacking the past few days but I ran 10 miles on Thursday...I'm going to run for a bit tomorrow. Mr. Mark get's back from Miami on Tuesday...I hope to see him Tuesday evening becasue I'm heading out of town on Wednesday.

On a side note...I met a guy on a shoot on Friday. Super artistic, musician scruffy guy. Sexy big curly red hair, glasses, facial hair...kind of dirty. He was totally feeling it. He called me Friday night to see if I wanted to hang out but of course I didn't. I am thinking about giving him a ring tomorrow and see what's up...maybe meet up...not sure yet. I kind of feel like I'd be doing something behind Marks back but at the same time we aren't "in a relationship" so what the crap should I care. I don't have a clue what he's doing in Miami...who he's with etc.

Okay going to call it a night.