Men!

So it was a nice week.

Halloween dress up Friday night was super fun with Mark. He looked awesome as the Mad Hatter and I looked smokin as a pin up girl. I did kind of think he was talking to another woman and making plans with her but he assured me I was insane. I'm pretty sure I'm not insane but what the fuck ever. So the next morning we were having sex (the intimate kind not the nasty kind) and he freakin drops the L bomb, again. I about shit myself. Are you serious? I think everything is going awesome and you have to start that shit. I just froze. He said I love you and I said....NOTHING! I just stared at him wishing I were some place else. I feel kind of terrible now looking back at it but what the heck am I supposed to do...lie and say I love him too. Seriously who says I love you after two months anyway?! I haven't seen him since Friday night (it's now Monday morning) and he's heading out of town until Wednesday...A few days to figure this insanity out.

So Halloween night I went out with my sister. It was a fantastic time...we went to Hard Rock and drank into oblivion. As soon as we get there freakin Rich (used to date) shows up with his new lady friend. Yuck. How weird. I about fell over. My sister about fell over. But in the end it turned out to be awesome because the chick was a fucking dog. Ew. That made me happy.

And to top off an awesome weekend fucking Todd texted me again. Oh and he requested me as a friend on Facebook (good times). Kind of don't know how to take all this in. We texted last night for a good hour. It was fun but makes me kind of pissed because here I am now in this somewhat "awesome" relationship with a man who thinks he loves me and the only man I have ever loved is back. I mean I don't think anything will come of Todd and I texting. He and his girlfriend are on a break...what ever that means. I have to keep an open mind about this and know that he is not interested in starting anything he just needs a pick me up from a let down. And to be honest that is okay with me because I do miss him and just want him to be a part of my life...wow I'm not sure if that's super lame or kind of sweet right about now. Nothing good is going to come of this...I'm just saying.