A month ago

So it's been about a month since I've written anything. I really need to be more proactive in what I'm doing on here.

Let's see...Dr. Oscar and I have been hanging out. Last week I went to his place...we played golf and then he cooked dinner. We ended up in the hot tub that night...and well you can imagine where things went from there. It was weired. I'm not sure thing with him are really going to go anywhere. But I know I have a good friend out of it. He sort of kept talking about his life and how he thinks he's just going to live until the boys are 18 and then take off and do what he wants. He has no interest in getting serious with someone until they are older. So pretty much him and I are just a fling which is okay I guess...I don't know. I've learned that old than 40, divorced with children is a no go. It just doesn't work.

I've been hanging out a lot with my friend Dan lately. He's awesome. I really wish we could be more than friends but he is still trying to get over his ex and dating a bunch of other girls. He's really turned into a great friend though. We go to the Bucs games together we have been going to random events together. But in the end we always end up with one of his girls. It's weird. I mean on paper is the perfect guy but we don't have that connection...I don't know if that makes sense. Maybe in time. Whatever at least I have a great friend out of the whole situation that is fun. :)

I met this guy Adam out on Halloween. He was adorable. He's a bit younger than I like (26). He's going to make a great husband one day. Comes from a good family. Is working on a career. Is good looking. He's a bit cocky but not too much. I don't we went to the movies the other night and then out to a few bars. He ended up crashing at my place...I'm not sure I liked that. I think he's just looking for a hook up at the moment. Which is cool. But I have plenty of those. I think I'll do one more date with him and if it still feels a little too physical then I'm going to sort of lay off.

I was talking to this guy Kevin online for a few weeks. We finally met last week and had an absolute blast. It was a little awkward at first but by the end of the night I really think we hit it off and connected. He smoked which is a lot of fun to know. He's an art director of a couple magazines. Which is kind of a cool gig. I'm not sure where that's going to go. I ended up crashing at his place the night we went out but we both literally passed out. Nothing physical at all. We were supposed to get together on Sunday night but I sort of had a day date that went longer than anticipated.

My day date was with Oliver. Oh Oliver. I really felt like we had a connection beyond most I've had lately. We went to see the Bucs game at a local bar and then we went to the movies/dinner and then he came back to my place to hangout for a bit. He's fucking hot. I mean he's so good looking that the girls at the bar we went to watch the game at kept coming over and staring at him. I'm not sure if that is normal for him or what but it was totally awesome in my head because he was all about me. We were going to hangout last night but I've been having issues with my car and needed to come up to my dads for a few days. We are supposed to hangout tomorrow night on his side of town. We shall see how that goes. A little about him. He's 32, from southern Cali, owns his own home painting business. He went to school for graphic arts and he is an artist for sure. He plays basketball and flag football weekly which I think is awesome. He seems like a really chill lets just stay home kind of guy which I'm totally up for at the moment. I'm trying to get back into shape and going to the bars every night isn't really conducive for that. So I think he may be a good change of pace...if he's as into me as I think I could be about him.

Okay I think that's enough of an update for now.

She's back. .

Okay so I was super bummed about Ronnie for a few days...and then I got over it real quick when I went back to the dating lots of fun guys at once. Soooo here's the update.

Baseball Rob: So I met Rob in south Tampa last week and we had a good time. He's incredibly good looking and is in pretty good shape...duh...he's a strength coach for a major league baseball team. I thought we had a great time, had dinner, had a few drinks and then things went sort of silly. My friend Laura met up with us and that sort of pissed Rob off. I didn't exactly invite her but I told her what I was doing and then she showed up...not my fault. Anyway, I got totally shit house (a big no no on a first date) and we sort of ended up going back to his house...it's all sort of a blur from there. I think it's safe to say that I am not going to say I doubt him and I will connect again. He keeps texting but I'm not really sure I'm going to pursue since we did get so shitty on our first date...not exactly a great first impression or the way we want things to go.

Dr. Oscar: So I started dating Oscar several months ago...probably 5 or 6 months ago and we only went out once. Well he randomly texted me last week and we sort of just picked up where we left off. So I went with Dr. Oscar to a party in his neighborhood on Saturday night. We really had a great time. I honestly think he had to have been nervous on our first date because he was an absolute blast this weekend! So the party was an Oktoberfest party that his neighbor was throwing...let me set this up for you...the party way on the golf course, wine cellar, band playing, lots of people, great food...really an awesome party...reminded me a lot of parties my parents use to throw. Anyway so we are having a great time and then he was like let's go spy on the babysitter (yeah he has two boys) so we walk down the golf course and spy on the kids. They appeared to be in bed. So I think that was his ploy to get me alone, in the dark just the two of us...duh hence the get alone thing. So we're chatting it up...having a great conversation...and then we had a moment...and he took full advantage of it. We kissed our first kiss. It was really sweet...he was adorable and giddy after the kiss. So we hung out for a bit longer and then called it a night. We had a serious make out session at my car before I left. So Dr. Oscar is in Boston for the next week having heart surgery and then staying with his parents the remainder of the week so they can nurse him back to health. I really hope things kick start with him. :)

Jolly Todd: I really have no idea what to call him. He's this really happy man in his late 30's...has a kid...his wife passed away a couple years ago. So anyway I met Todd on Eharm...he's actually the first guy I have met from Eharm. So we went and had a drink last week. It went a lot better than I imagined...I thought he was going to be sort of a bore and not really my type...but he's adorable...has his shit together. A lot of fun. Found out last night that he smokes the weed...which is awesome. Anyway him and I are going to the Rays game tonight...we shall see how that goes. He is the least attractive out of the men I'm dating but he really is a lot of fun and there is some serious potential.

Had a random one night stand with some random guy that lives down the block a few weeks ago...I have his name in my phone but off the top of my head I can't remember it. Not really proud of that moment...it was the first true one night stand that I have had in years...it was kind of silly. I don't know why I even mention it...just trying to keep this whole thing real..

Um...I think that's it...for now...more to come. :)

Fucking seriously?

So Mr. Ronnie is moving out of state in two months. What the fuck. I find this awesome man who makes me happy and appears to get me and now he's gone...poof. What a sick joke.

So with that said I picked back up online. I am meeting the first new guy in a few months tonight for drinks. His name is Rob. He works with baseball teams as a therapist or something.

UGH...Here we go again on the man search.

fuck my life.

:)

So it's 8:15 and I'm about to leave to head to Ronnies for the night. I really didn't think I was going to get to see him this week so it's a nice surprise that I'm heading over later. His daughter is in town so I'm not going to head over until she's in bed. He mentioned tonight that he and his ex decided that nobody meets the little lady until they are damn near engaged. I think that's a good idea...I would be shocked if it were any other way.

So now that I'm dating someone I'm actually interested in the boys are coming out of the wood work. Dave from college has been texting me lately. Hooman just texted me tonight to see if I wanted to do wine and a movie tonight. Chris is back in the picture because we ran into each other the other night at a concert so he wanted to see a movie tonight. Rob texted me last night to see if I wanted to do dinner tonight. Freakin what the crap...why can't they come around when I'm not interested in someone!

Okay well it's kind of flattering that so many guys are knocking at the door...but I could go without the distractions!

Ron, Ronnie, Ronald.

So it's been a nutty few weeks with work and dating. But I have some time and I'd like to play catch up with what's going on.

So Ron is still number one. We've hung out a few more times...I happened to be around at the right (or wrong) time and met his mom last week. We had the most fantastic date the other night...we went and saw The Black Keys and Kings Of Leon. He is the best. I really do hope things continue on the path that they are. We currently are on a once a week hanging out sort of schedule. He's been working a lot (he wanted to fill his time with work since he was single and didn't have anything else to do)...he's been also spending a bit of time with his family...which I love. He made a comment the other day that I was made for him...like a special order. I thought that was the sweetest thing a man has said to me. Yes, I'm smitten. But I'm being cautious with him...I don't to put it all out there just to get hurt. He does say he's looking to get married again when the time is right. He wants two kids. I think he wants a stay at home wife...which is something I could be all about if I could still do makeup and volunteering on the side.

Okay yeah see total new mind set...talking family shit now. Weird.

Ron is taking the lead.

So it's been a couple weeks since I've written and several things have happened. I sort of stopped chatting it up with Chris. We just sort of stopped talking...it was driving me nuts that he does is sit around the house all day and do nothing. He doesn't appear to be looking to do anything with himself and I can't have that in my life. If I date unmotivated people it generally makes me unmotivated. So he's out...for now.

I did meet Ron a few weeks ago. We met on match.com...duh. He's 38, a pilot, and handsome!! He's divorced and has a 3 year old daughter. He's really fantastic...but we all know that's what I think of all of them in the beginning. We are doing date three tonight. Date one was dinner and a few drinks, date two was dinner and lots of drinks...we were supposed to go to the movies but we didn't make it. We got hammered and really had a blast. He's a lot of fun. Tonight is low key...pizza, wine and a movie at his place. We have also been doing the video chat thing...first time I've really done that with someone I'm dating...soooo fun. Okay so I think Ron is eventually looking to get married again...he made a comment that he's on all the sites because he doesn't want to screw around and wants to find someone.

This would normally make me run but things have changed a bit in my mind. I've been spending a lot of time with my sister, her husband and their daughter. I'm falling in love with the idea of being a wife and mom. But I want to make sure I find the right man...I don't ever want to be a single mom or divorced. I think I'm going to sort of only date the ones that are looking for long term...cool it with the "fun" guys who aren't going to get serious anytime soon.

I don't know...we shall see.

Another creepy email.

A proposition

I just want to run something by you here, I'm not sure if you'll be interested at all. I’m a submissive. I’m not sure if you know what that means, but I like to do stuff for people. Nothing sexual. Just stuff like me doing your dishes, laundry, cleaning your house, etc. Would you be interested in that at all?

Went to a movie with Chris last night. We saw The Other Guys...funny movie. It was a low key night. He dropped me off after the show. No other guy update really...there are a few new ones in the works but nothing special to mention at the moment. I'll leave this posting with a fun little match.com email I received this week.

Hi Camren,

I read your profile and am very interested. Yes, you're hot and I'm a 6'6" handsome guy, but this isn't impressive. What we're born with doesn't captivate people's hearts and minds. People like us are most respected and loved for what we have achieved on our own and what we've given back to others up to this point in our lives. Based on your professional career and ambition, you're not looking for the Ed Hardy type, much like I'm not looking for fake girls who can't make their own way in the world. Long story short, I think we have a lot in common and I'd like to learn more about you soon.

-Brad

Note: Brad is not remotely attractive...I can't quite tell if he's trying to be funny or if he in fact thinks he's God's gift to the ladies...

Trying to be a good girl.

So now that I'm sort of dating Chris or whatever you want to call it I'm trying to be on my best behavior with the boys. How long will this last...I haven't a clue. But I know that I'm trying not to screw things up with him.

Stacey was supposed to come over the other morning but I texted him and told him I was busy. I met a guy online that I was supposed to meet at a show last night...I told him I couldn't make it. Mark texted me to hangout last night...I told him I couldn't make it. Rob is trying to set up plans for this weekend...I haven't gotten back to him.

I spent the night at Chris' house last night. We didn't mess around or anything...it was nice to just hangout...be bums...watch the tube.

We'll see what life brings.

Days and days of Chris.

So I have spent the last few days with Chris. I spent the night Friday, Saturday and Sunday night at his place. It's been fun. I met his sisters, niece and nephew. They were very nice. It was kind of early to meet them but it wasn't weird or anything. I'm not sure where things are going to go with him. We didn't sleep together yet...however, we did fool around a bit. He is not packing very much down below...I'm hoping he knows how to work with his hands and mouth. He certainly turns me on though. So we shall see.

It looks like Stacey the Brit may come over Wednesday morning. He's so freakin sexy. We've been messing around for a little over a year now. It's purely physical between the two of us.

I met a guy a few weeks ago at Wazoo...he's interested in getting together this week.

Mark has been messaging me. I haven't seen him in three weeks. He made it a point of pointing that out. I really need to get rid of his ass...but I just haven't kicked it yet.

Rob got back from Costa Rica yesterday. We are going to get together sometime this week. I'm not sure if things are going to go any further.

We shall see.

Chris is taking the lead....

So it's been a few days since I last wrote.

Chris is really making me smile. I went out Saturday night with some girl friends. I told him I'd be down in Ybor and that he should come down and we could grab a drink. Well he did. So after a bit with the ladies I dipped out and met Chris at some random little bar. We had a quick drink and then he decided he was hungry...so we drove all over Tampa looking for a decent place that was open and had food. We ended up at the little barbecue place in south Tampa. We ate and then he dropped me off. We had our first kiss. *butterflies*

So the next morning Rob and I had plans to meet for coffee before he headed out of town on vaycay. He was running late and Chris and I were play texting. He said he was hungry and that he was going to grab breakfast. Someone how the conversation turned into him saying he was turning his car around and coming to get me. Haha I played around and said sweet see you soon. HE REALLY SHOWED UP...AND ROB WAS 5 MINUTES AWAY. Holy crap. I had to think fast...so I texted Rob and told him I had to run to NPR real quick to help my sister out that I was very sorry. I'm such a jerk. Rob is really a nice guy...but this Chris guy is really making an impact.

So we had lunch and my sister joined up because her and I were going to grab lunch together anyway.

So I've been out of town for a few days and Chris and I have been texting up a storm (1193 at the moment to be exact). So he sent me a text saying that all we do is text and that it's a bit impersonal and that we should talk on the phone more...and we have. I want to get excited about him...I really do...but I am still jaded from Bill...we shall see what happens.

Chris, Rob, Chris, Rob

Two great guys...one awesome girl...I love my life.

So Rob was coming back from a funeral yesterday and stopped by my part of town to grab a bite to eat. How convenient. He's really a great guy. A little odd...but not in a bad bay. I think he's kind of shy. Anyway, he's going to Costa Rica on Saturday so he wanted to get in some us time before he left and he's going to be super busy with work until he leaves (or so he says...but I believe him for some reason). We had a nice bite at Acropolis. He made mention that he wants to try and get together again before he leaves...he suggested maybe Friday night or Saturday morning...I'm going to vote for Saturday morning because I'm supposed to hangout with little man Aaron on Friday night...finally.

Okay...so yesterday afternoon I get a text from Chris 40. He said he's going to be up at a bar down the street from me and that he'll be up there for a while and that if I needed a change of pace I should stop by. I stopped by. :) He's really handsome...but you can totally tell he's 40. He's a cool guy. But he sort of reminds me of Mark in a weird way. I feel like maybe it's a if he's 40, single and never been married then he acts a certain way type of thing. He likes to entertain...he doesn't seem like he's insecure too much...but maybe a little...but nothing like Mark (who just texted me and informed me he's at the dermatologist...he's ALWAYS doing shit with his appearance!...what the crap!). Anyway, he wants to go on a "real" date next week...he wants to take me to a nice restaurant in Tampa...lol...I think it's funny when a guy says that...he didn't actually say it's a nice restaurant he just said that it's really good and he explained the desert...he made it sounds poshy. I can't wait...I love yummy food.

Okay...well I don't have anything scheduled for today...maybe something last minute. Going to hang out with little man Aaron tomorrow...doubt I'll get much man time in over the weekend I'm doing a lot of family fun stuff...

...we shall see. :)

So I went out with Miami Rob on Friday night. We had a nice time. He's absolutely adorable. We went to the Dubliner for a few drinks and then stopped by Four Green Fields...always a fun spot to do some people watching. Anyway, I like him. He made mention that he's completely comfortable in his skin. I really admire that. My only concern with him is he's sort of little...lol...he says he's 5'9...he's just shy of 5'9 in my opinion...to heels with this one. He also has a smaller frame...I'm by no means a fat kid but I have always dated bigger guys (except Rich...he was an exception...who I actually ran into on Saturday night at the Hard Rock...he had a date...blah). We're getting together today on his way back from Jacksonville (he had to attend a funeral for his friends child...not fun).

Yesterday I met Chris (40, new to match.com, used to own a bar, sort of unemployed at the moment from what I can tell) at The Bunker for a coffee. It was fun meeting him. He's handsome. He is currently waiting on getting approval to reopen his bar...of course these are all just words that come out of his face and I really wont believe a thing until I see it...thank you Bill...fucker. We'll see if anything comes of that.

Daddy Joey

So I went on a date last night with daddy Joey. We have really awesome conversations...they flow really well. We've been "dating" for more than 6 months now...but we don't see each other often. Last night was the first time we had sex...it was...well fun...potential to be really awesome...we'll see if I do that again. He has a large cock...and he likes to talk dirty...which is a major fucking turn on for me.

Going out with a guy named Rob that I met in Miami two weeks ago. We randomly ran into each other at a bar and hit it off...come to find out he lives in the area. So we're doing sushi...we'll see how that goes. I think he's really short from what I remember...but I was in super high heels so maybe he's not as short as I'm anticipating.

Fun filled weekend.

This weekend was awesome.

Friday Alberto came over. We haven't hung out in a really long time...maybe 5 months or so. Anyway he has really been trying to get together so I blew off Jack and asked him to come over. We just played around the house, watched tv, ate some pizza went to sleep. He's fantastic...but I don't really think in the long run we're right for each other. He's incredibly smart which is probably one of the sexiest things to me. For the rest of him all very average...average looks, chubby average body, average penis...I think...I wouldn't really go near his penis...it kind of freaks me out...he's uncircumcised...no idea why that thought freaks me out so much. Needless to say we only made out and cuddled. I could not go any further.

So Saturday I go out for my brother in laws birthday. Mr. Rich was there and we flirted but he was a lame ass and went home early...something about he had to get up early..bla bla bla. Anyway the night was awesome...so much fun. Woody ended up coming home and staying the night at my place (his good friend came to and hung out with my sister). Needless to say I've always kind of had a crush on Woody. He's nothing to look at but he's freakin ridiculously funny. Well I guess we went to bed and I rolled over looked him in the eyes and said "don't fucking touch me". WTF!? Too funny...so yeah me and Woody didn't happen...but it makes for a funny story.

So I was recovering Sunday morning from Saturday night when Hooman gave me a call. He asked if I wanted to go hit some balls at the driving range...I said yes. :) So we go, hit some balls, go to the mall, go eat some excellent Jamacian food and then we came back to my place and hung out. He explained that he disappeared because his ex came back into his life and they were trying to see if things were going to work out. I was actually kind of happy when he told me this...this means when he's serious with someone he sticks to that person and doesn't play around. But it kind of annoyed me that he thought I even gave a shit...I don't. He's not the only guy I date and certainly wasn't the only one when we were dating. I'm not sure if we'll hangout again...we shall see.

Mark has been texting the shit out of me...I'm not really answering him because I think he is a freakin nut job. I realize I'm bipolar with him...and I'm okay with that.

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I had lunch with Mark yesterday. He's back to his crazy weird ways...he's so insecure. When we pulled up for lunch he hit the curb in front of the restaurant and the first thing that came out his mouth was "you don't think anyone saw that do you"...who gives a fuck if someone saw it!! Ugh.

I went out with Jack the other night. I had an absolute blast with him...but I still have this feeling that I don't believe a word that comes out of his face. Sad really. We're doing dinner and a comedy show tonight...should be good times. I doubt this is going to go anywhere though...just a feeling.

p.s.

I found out Mark is on Match.com because he viewed my profile a few weeks back. Not sure how I feel about that. I'm sort of annoyed.

The effects

So I'm back home now. I've been chatting it up with a guy named Jack the past week or so. We have made plans to meet on Friday night...do dinner and a comedy show. I really want to be excited about him...he's cute, smart, funny, calm, cool...a lot like me personality wise...but I just can't get into it. I really think I'm starting to feel the effects of what Bill really did to me. A girl friend of mine owns a background checking company...I was in the middle of a conversation with him last night on the phone and all I could think about was is he telling me the truth, he's probably full of shit, no way...so in the middle of our conversation I texted my friend and asked her to run a check on him. She's doing that today. Fuck. I want to go back to my carefree freespirited nature that was before Bill. :(

Funny.

I've been on location for work. The morning I headed out of town I met with Shawn for breakfast...as a way for us to meet before I headed out of town because he leaves for a few weeks before I get back in town. So Shawn is very funny. Appears to have his shit together. Great job. Close with his family. So we meet for breakfast. He's soooo freakin good looking...like classic all American good looking man. Tall, dark hair, dark eyes, great tan, great voice. So we're shooting the shit, eating yummy breakfast...everything is going great. That is until I notice something weird about his arm...he was wearing a long sleeve white button up shirt...well the light his the shirt just so and I notice he has a little arm!!!!!!! No freakin joke. Like I'm pretty sure it's shorter but it is absolutely skinny. So I stop for a second...look at his other arm...it's normal...muscular...proportionate. No joke. Little arm. Enough said.

Okay so I've been in Miami for work. Before I headed down here I went on match to see if anyone in the area caught my attention. Two guys did. I winked at both. They both emailed me back. We did the chit chat back and forth with email for a second but nothing really came of it. So I go out one night with a girl friend of mine. We get kind of shitty. Okay that's a lie we were shit housed. So we randomly end up at some random shitty bar. We're hanging out and we strike up a conversation with a couple guys at the bar. Everything is going great and then Laura gets so shitty she can't even walk...gross...I'm not sure how this happened...I'm all about getting a little shitty but I'm not in college anymore so I'm not into that. Anyway these random doods offer us a lift back to my hotel. We accept. They help me get the lush back into my hotel room. So me and the guy I've been chatting it up with strike up another conversation on my balcony. He's really cute. I'm totally digging him. We exchange cards...he's a tattoo artist...so hot. Well we call it a night. So I get a text from him the next morning...HE'S ONE OF THE GUYS I WAS CHATTING IT UP WITH ON MATCH EARLIER IN THE WEEK. How freakin funny and random...life is funny.

boys, boys, boys

Had a fun weekend.

I ran into Rich at a part this weekend. We were up to our usual flirts...then some booze kicked in...then some pool action came to be...and some fooling around followed. It was good times. I'll probably see him in a few weeks at my brother in laws birthday party. Mark said he may come to that...that would be weird...but kind of funny.

Speaking of Mark...I spent the afternoon with him yesterday. We went to World Of Beer and had a few drinks...which turned into a lot of drinks at the Pour House. I really dig him...I wish he wasn't such a tool.

Hooman didn't come over the other day because it was late when my dad left...I didn't really feel like entertaining. I'm not sure if we're going to try and see each other again...maybe...maybe not. I have two dates pending tomorrow night...not sure whom I'm going to end up seeing...Little Man Aaron (he's 5'6) or Shawn Eh (he's Canadian). I doubt I'll really click with the little man...I mean he's really going to have to have a personality to get over the height thing...

We'll see what tomorrow brings.

Back at it.

It didn't take long. I'm back in the swing of things with dating once again. It's a bit odd this time around being I have a new outlook on people in general. I'm not very trusting and not really hanging on to anything anyone says. But it still makes for good times and stories.

I hung out with Mark the other day. I think it's safe to say I have a new appreciation for this man. Although he has his issues I know him. I know he cares for me. I know what we have is somewhat real...he's not faking the relationship to gain something from me.

I had quite the date day yesterday. I had lunch with photo Joey. I don't think I'm interested in seeing him again. He was a bit shorter than I imagined and he's kind of dorky. He's 37, in the military, is a photographer...but I'm not sure he really has a job. Not sure if that makes sense. And he appears to be the relationship type....not my type. I then had lunch with Tom. Tom is not my type what so ever...I doubt we will ever see each other again...but it was nice to meet him. We actually were very candid about our dating experiences and we both opened up about how much we actually date. He admitted that there are weeks when he sees 3 or 4 different people. I loved how honest this was. I even mentioned my blog to him. I know he's trying to find this blog...but I'm not giving it up. lol

Hooman said he's going to come over tonight to help me build a bookcase. I haven't seen him in months. He randomly called me out of the blue and told me he's had a few dreams about me lately. He's probably full of shit. But it's nice to hear someone is thinking about you.

I've been chatting it up with Shawn. He's new to the mix. We'll see if anything comes of this.

Un-fucking-believeable.

I'm in fucking shock right now. Billy turned out to be some total douch-fuck-wad-scumb-sucking piece of shit. He was a total liar. He is a total scam artist. He stole money from me. He lied to me non stop. I can only thank God he was pulled over a few nights ago. TOTAL ASS FUCKING JERK OFF. He had warrants out for his arrest. He went to jail. His name wasn't even William Anderson it was William Abraham. FUCKING UNBELIEVABLE.

whirl wind

So Billy has been staying with me the past 4 or 5 days. It's been a lot of fun playing house with him. He's been helping me with work and I've been helping him chill out. I really have fallen head over heals for him. I can honesty say he's the closest thing to a best friend I have had in years. He really listens and wants to know me. I think it's safe to say I'm in love with this man. We hit a tension spot today and it made me sad that we were not seeing eye to eye. He went to watch the World Cup and I stayed home and took a nap, watched some tv and read a bit. He's down at the pool now. I sent him an email while he was watching the game...I'll post it below. Okay no other updates for the moment.

Hi baby.

So I feel like there’s a bit of tension between us and I don’t feel like
it needs to be this way. Making you feel uncomfortable in my home is the
last thing on earth I ever want. It really upsets me that you feel that
way. I know you are a words guy but words don’t always come the best for
me in the moment…I have to take a deep breath and think things through. I
have done so and this is what I’ve come up with.

I love you. I have fallen in love with you and with everyday I spend with
you I learn more about you and care for you more. I am vulnerable with
you. I feel like you could easily break my heart and there is nothing I
can do about that. You make comments about how you would never hurt
anyone intentionally but you would leave in an instant if you wanted to.
That scares me. That scares me a lot. So if one day you woke up and
weren’t feel us anymore you could just leave at the drop of a dime. You
say you don’t need to be in Florida that you don’t even really like
Florida. That makes the possibility of you leaving even more real because
you’re not happy with your environment. Scary. These thoughts make my
heart hurt and my head spin. I don’t think you realize when you say these
things that they upset me. They make me feel like I’m disposable. I know
in my heart that’s not you intention and that you do care for me…but when
there is tension around us like today it really freaks me out. So that
makes the tension even stronger because I don’t know if you are thinking
well maybe I should just bail and call it a loss now.

Okay it’s making me feel really bad thinking about all this. On to
another topic. I haven’t spent this much time with someone in years…true
statement. I love spending time with you I just ask that you bare with me
if I have a moment or two when I’m like I need to breath. I literally
just wanted to go out to the pool this morning that’s why I asked if you
were going now…I didn’t mean it to come off as I’m being rude or wanted
you out…quite the opposite. I wanted to go to the pool and read my book
next to you. I wanted to spend quiet time with you outside…you enjoying
the sun me enjoying my book and you. Yes, I was disappointed this morning
when Reese told me the baby had a fever and she wouldn’t make it to
Clearwater. If I took that out on you or my tone was off I apologize…I
probably should have taken an extra minute or two with myself before I
came out and started talking.

I’m not sure what I can do now to make this all better…I wish you wouldn’t
have assumed I was being an ass and just listened to me this morning.
Yes, last night I couldn’t sleep so I got up to read my book. I wasn’t
lying to you when I said I was fine…it wasn’t a major issue…I just felt
like I was being super clingy and needy and I don’t feel like that’s the
person I am (although my actions with you would suggest otherwise)…So I
guess until now this point in my life I have never been needy with anyone.
So I start thinking about it and I came up with I’m not sure anyone has
ever made me feel the way you make me feel. Beyond being comfortable and
happy with you I’m learning more about me. You are teaching me about
me…and for that I am grateful. By nature I think I am a people pleaser
and I don’t like to feel rejected (I know most people don’t like it but I
feel like it affects me in a different way than most…I take it personal).
Back to me being a people pleaser…until you when dating someone I’m
realizing now that they never really cared about me as a person and were
probably more in it for themselves…I say this because when you asked
what’s wrong and I said nothing I’m fine…until you the men I have dated
left it at that. They didn’t really care to find out what’s going on in
my head. This is my problem not yours. But I want you to understand why
I responded that way.

I am honest with you Billy. And I’m working everyday at being open…I know
for you being open is easy it’s your nature it’s who you are…Until you I
never really wanted to be open with anyone. I never really wanted to let
someone into my whole world. With you it’s different…I want you to know
everything about me. I want to know everything about you. I love that I
know what you’re thinking before you say it and I love that you know my
mannerisms. I can see a future with you. I actually dream at night about
years down the road with us. I think about all we can accomplish
together. I think about the experiences we can have together and the
stories you’ll be telling in the future about us. I don’t know if you
think about these things but this is a first for me.

As for the age thing...it's not an issue for me. I hope we don't make it
an issue. I am in love with you because of the man you are. I am in love
with your honesty. I am in love with you integrity. I am in love with
your heart. I am in love with your commitment to your family. I am in
love with your relationship with God (I know we don't see eye to eye on
this but I am open to letting God into my heart...I am open to learning
what there is to learn and experiencing all he has to offer...You are the
first person that has explained their relationship with God to me and it's
something I want in my life...but we can get into this at another time).
I am in love with your smile and the way you scrunch up your face when
you're cracking up. I am in love with the way you touch me when we're
sleeping (I really don't think I can put into words the way this makes me
feel). I really could go on all day with this.

I am in love with you. That’s what’s running through my mind right now.
I just wanted to put that out there. I don’t expect a response from you
right now or really anytime I just wanted you to know where my head is.
Every time I try to say these things in person I freeze…My head goes
blank. You make me nervous…in a good way…and yes there is a good
way…butterflies are usually involved…I get off track with my thinking when
I look you in the eyes.

Okay back to your game. :)

xo

Bill is in Chicago for the next week. Should be interesting how this works out. I miss him which is weird. I can't wait to see him when he gets back. He's on daddy duty.

Funny story...we were having dinner the other night and he was talking to the waitress about how Florida guys in their 40's are shacked up with these dumb young skanks who only want their money. She kind of paused and looked at us like we were nuts since I'm in my 20's and he's in his 40's. It was really funny. I mean if you just looked at us we look like an odd couple but we really are a great couple. We crack each other up. And we care for each other. I guess we need to get used to the looks.

I have a boyfriend.

True story. Bill is now my boyfriend. I'm pretty excited. I can't wait to see what's to come.

:)

So I'm completely falling head over heals for someone I've known a week...I cannot believe how I feel about Billy. He just asked me to tell him what's going on in my head...this is what I came up with.


How do I feel about Bill?? Well, as you know I’m not the greatest with
words but this is my attempt to make some sort of sense of how I am
feeling inside. First of all I cannot believe I’ve known you less than a
week. I feel like you are my friend…a close friend. Lying next to you
last night was the most comfortable I have been in a very long time. I
felt happy. I felt safe. I felt peace. I want you to know about all
aspects of my life. I want to create experiences with you. I want to
laugh with you. I want to listen to your stories and giggle in my head
when you get off track and can’t remember where you were going with a
thought. I want to hold your hand. You give me butterflies when we kiss.
I smile when you pop into my head (which is often). I miss you right
now. I like the way you look at me. I like that you call me on my
bullshit and crack jokes with me (and at me). I like that we are so
different and yet share many things in common. You make me want to be in
a relationship (I haven’t been interested in sharing my life with someone
in years). You make me want to be a better person (I really do mean
that…with my career, my family, my health, my heart, my brain). Speaking
of brains I like yours a lot. I would be generally upset if this ended
tomorrow (I got that weird little knot thing in my throat right now
thinking about that). I feel vulnerable with you (that scares me…and I’m
okay with it). I like that you texted my mom (ass). I like you…a lot.

6 1/2 hours on the phone...really?

So I spent a total of 6 1/2 hours on the phone with Billy yesterday. How on earth does that happen? I learned so much about him. We have a lot in common. He's incredibly funny. He would have to have an extra eye or something when we met for me to not be crazy about him. He's interesting and interested. He would ask questions.

Oh my...so he just texted and we just had the hottest sexting conversation I have ever had. I need to go take care of a few things.

I like to keep it complicated...

So I went out with Dan on Saturday. We had lunch and a drink at Kona Grill. He's so goofy. Cute. Well off. But recently ended a relationship...this I believe will prove to be an issue.

I went out with Mark last night. I'm such a retard. We went to dinner then had a few drinks at the bar in his building. I sort of started to miss him when I was with him. He's back in a better place and seems to be positive. But of course now he's dating someone else. Oh I forgot to mention we had sex...a lot of sex. It was incredible. I mean really really really great. I don't think I've ever felt the way he made me feel last night (and this morning). Now I have no idea what's going on. He told me he loves me and misses me. He wants to go on vaycay in July. I have no idea what to think. My roommate told me not to bother with him...she said everything seems great now because it's been a while...but that he'll go back to his old ways. We shall see.

So I had to most awesome phone conversation with a man named Billy today. We literally were on the phone for three hours. I can't think of the last person I spent three hours on the phone with. He seems like the type of guy that likes to settle down...I like that...I think.

Eh...

So I went out with Dr. Oscar last night. Not real sure how I feel about the date. I mean it was totally comfortable and everything...but not really sure. He's 42...and you can tell he's 42. He's incredibly handsome. But I feel like maybe there's a disconnect between us. I really think I'm just too young for him. We decided we are going to do it again...so we shall see. I just feel a little odd because I feel like he's at the same point in his life that my dad will be in a year or two. What I mean by that is he was divorced about 2 years ago. His wife had a midlife crisis. She cheated on him a couple of times. I don't know he just seems so freakin nice I can't imagine why anyone would screw things up with him.

We'll see.

I may go out with Dan this afternoon.

Date night.

So I went out with Jeremy last night for his birthday. Got shitty. Picked up the tab. I never do that. I had a great time. We both crashed when we got back to his place. We were total messes of shit. Fun.

I have a date tonight with Dr. Oscar. We met on match. We've been chatting it up for a couple of weeks now. We have good conversation. He's well educated and speaks well. Major turn on. He's a bit older...he's 40 (I think). He has two kids...joint custody. I really have no idea what to expect tonight. I'm sort of freakin out about what to wear...part of me thinks keep it casual but nice...jeans and a blazer. Part of me says dress it up with a nice dress...but that's more of a second date wow kind of thing...We'll see.

I'm possibly meeting up with Dan the man tomorrow for a few afternoon drinks. Dan is just coming out of a relationship. I doubt he's ready to really start dating. But I'm interested in at least meeting him.

Okay that's all I gots for now.

So Hardrock came over last night. We watched a movie. Hung out. We hooked up. It was fun.

Mark changed his relationship status on facebook to in a relationship with the woman he swears he's not sleeping with. I was in shock for a minute. Then I was happy for him. I hope she makes him happy.

I went out with a bunch of girl friend that I hadn't seen in ages the other night. They're all married. Seriously I'm the only single 27 year old woman left on the planet.

Can't sleep...time to chat

Ugh it's 4:30 in the a.m. and I've been sitting here for an hour not being able to sleep.

So I had a wonderful man day yesterday. Hard Rock Tim called while I was out looking for an apartment. He asked if I wanted to do breakfast. I accepted. We went and had some food. It was fun. He's really cute. He wanted me to sit next to him while we ate (he said because he doesn't like someone looking at him while he eats...kind of odd). So I sat next to him. He kept touching me and being cute. He's fun.

Then I had lunch with a guy named David (met him on match.com). He's a really sweet guy. He doesn't have all his ducks in a row but he's working on it. He's incredibly handsome. He's very kind. You can tell he has a big heart. He's 100% relationship material. Lunch went well. He wants to get together again. I think I'm going to. I don't think he would put up with me dating more than one dood. Okay so his baggage. He's divorced. But that's not really baggage because I don't really care about that. He says him and his ex don't have bad feelings towards one another. I believe him. He's back in school and owns his own company...with his dad. Okay the kicker...he lives with his parents. Not really sure how I feel about that. I mean this would force us to take things slow which would be a different pace. Who knows where this will end up.

So I found a new condo today that I'm going to be leasing for a year. The owner is freakin sexy. I need to get that right out of my head.

So I've been chatting with Mr. Dan all day today. He's going through a break up. He hasn't said that but I'm pretty sure it was pretty recent. Bummer. I seems pretty freakin awesome.

Canceled a date with Mario. He never got back with me I'm assuming that screwed that up.

Tim called when he got to work.

Jeremy called on lunch and then never called back. He's so freakin flakey.

Firefighter Aaron wants to get together this weekend...I can't.

Mark told me he's been seeing someone. The last time they were together was 2 weeks ago. He says they haven't slept together. I'm not sure I believe him. Not like I really care. He said he still wants me in his life and thinks we have a deep connection. I asked him later if he wanted to get together. (Jeremy is calling right now...I'm not going to pick up) He said he's spent he'd been at boot camp. I'm just shaking my head laughing right now.

match.com

I signed up to another dating site this week. I think I'm addicted. Or maybe I just like being social. Who knows.

I met Tim from match for lunch on Tuesday. He's freakin hot. But I'm pretty sure he just wants a physical thing. Not that I'm opposed to that. I went to his place yesterday and we played at the pool. He called last night but I was out with Joey.

I went out with Daddy Joey last night for dinner. He's really cute. I like him. But he has a son...but he only hangs out when Gage is with his ex. We had a fun time. We kind of fooled around a bit. His penis is gorgeous. I think I would like to have sex with him. We shall see.

So

My parents got a divorce. wtf. No idea how I feel about marriage anyway...so this just sort of makes me feel like everything is doomed from the get go.

I've been chatting it up with Jeremy all week. He asked me to go to a wedding with him in a few weeks in North Carolina. I think I'm going to go. We may hangout tonight. Not sure.

Had my cards read yesterday. The lady said that my man is going to be very smart. Good with numbers. Reasonable. But passionate...in the bedroom. Yes please. Now where the fuck is this man?!

And I'm back

So I've been on location for the past month and haven't really been doing much dating. Just working.

In the past month several things have happened on the man front. I've basically stopped talking to all the boys. I think I'm over the multiple dating not really getting to know anyone bull shit. All though give me a week and things may change.

Breakfast/Hard Rock Robert is moving to Orlando. I don't feel like trying to get to know someone who is an hour and a half away so he's out of the mix. We were supposed to get together last weekend but I forgot to call him and his stubborn ass didn't call me. So I'm pretty sure that's how it's going to end.

Mark is a total mess of shit. He has serious psychological problems with his image. He's really trying to make things right between the two of us but I really don't think there is anything there. We went out the other night to see a movie and grab dinner. Just nothing there.

Hooman is a goner. He called while I was out of town. I said I'd call him when I got back. I haven't called yet. Doubt I will.

David is a goner. We were supposed to get together Sunday (the only day he can ever do anything because crap fills the other days of his life). My sister came into town and we went condo shopping. I never called David when we were finished. I forgot. He's out.

Firefighter yummy man Aaron texted me while I was out of town. He says he wants to explain why he disappeared. He wants another chance. I've been texting him here and there but there's no way in fuck I'm going to hang out with him. Frickin ass hole.

Doubt it Andy texted me last week to apologize for being a total douche. He wants to be friends. He can eat a dick.

I'd still like to keep my lover relationship going with Stacey. That is until I find someone worth my time. I haven't had sex in over a month. That's a long time for this girl. I kind of like it and will keep it going for a bit.

I started talking to a boy name Jeremy. We met on POF a while back when I was still on there. He saw me online one afternoon and chatted me up. We met on Sunday when I was in the area. He's a lot shorter than I anticipated (he said he was 5'8...I don't think he's 5'8...I'm 5'8). But other than the height thing he's frickin awesome. Has a good job. Owns his own home. Owns his own car. Has tattoos. Used to bmx. Has things he enjoys doing. At the least I've made a new friend with him. I want to take things super slow. I'm going to stop by his house tonight and hang for a few. He asked me to go out with him on Saturday night. Some redneck bar...we'll go make fun of people...should be good times.

Okay this is where my life is.

Oh I forgot to mention the band boy I met while on location. His name is J. He lives in Nashville. He's in a band. I want to bathe him.

Boys Boys Boys

So deleted my pof profile and joined arablounge since. I've been chatting with a few guys off there.

I've went out with Breakfast Robert on Friday. We sort of had an argument about Tiger Woods wife which was insane to me. It was so dumb. I haven't seen him since but I think we're okay. We shal see.

Still chatting with David but I think I'm just like whatever with him. He wants to be serious but I sort of feel like he's possibly dating someone else.

I'm going to Todd's shop tonight to do makeup...we banged last time we were together so who the hell know what's going to happen then next week while I'm in Orlando.

Cuddled with Rich the other night when I was at my sisters. I didn't want to have sex so I told him I was having lady issues. Oops.

Mark says he misses the shit out of me and has been laying low. Not sure what the fuck that's all about. I'm worried about him. I feel like I need to give him a call .

He's gay...duh

So I went out with turrets boy a few months ago. It was a total flop. I was completely uninterested and that was that. Well he sends me an im a few days ago asking for advice. He thinks he's gay. He thinks he wants to date men and he wants my opinion. WTF?! I almost fell on my face. He said there was a guy who was interested in him. I said honey go for it. So he did. And they fooled around. And he told me about it. BLAH. Good for him. Yuck for me.

David is making lead way

So I'm starting to feel better from surgery. David came over last night for a few hours. We just hung out and watched a bit of tv. He changed the thing for my wound which is gross but thank goodness he was willing to do it. We are supposed to hangout on Sunday.

Hooman went out of town this week. Haven't spoken with him much. He's on the back burner for the moment...but I'm sure he'll find his way back in the front of the line.

I've been texting Breakfast Robert. He wants to spend some QT together. We shall see what the fuck that means.

I deleted my POF account.

David Days

Had a pretty much family oriented weekend so I didn't have much man time.

That is until last night. David came over last night after work. He spent the night. We had an awesome time. He's really a lot of fun...and simple. He says yes dear...anything you want dear. Who doesn't want to hear this?!?!!

I'm having surgery tomorrow. David said he's going to stop by sometime...we'll see. Maybe Hooman will come by too. No idea.

Hooman is a frickin blast.

Okay lets start off with Breakfast Robert met up with me for lunch on Tuesday. We sat around all afternoon shooting the shit at The Bunker. He's cool. He's a puzzle. Since we didn't meet online it's a bit odd to me to see the progression of things. We talked a lot. He's a mans man that's for sure...kind of a southern redneck type...with a little class. I'm pretty sure he drives a BMW convertible...which is always a nice thing. I totally called him off on saying Ciao...he cracked up...now he says goodbye but kind of an ass hole way...but it's funny. Not sure when I'll see him again.

Okay so Tuesday evening I went to Davids. We watched tv, went for a walk, just hung out really. I am attracted to him but I'm not sure I can dumb all the others for just one at the moment. I'm pretty sure that's the way he wants this to go. In fact he sort of made a comment about it. I want to slap him outside the head and say HELLO FREAK WE'VE KNOWN EACH OTHER LESS THAN A WEEK...let's take it down a notch. He just texted and said I want to see you tomorrow night. We agreed not to see each other until Sunday. What the fuck.

Okay so on to Hooman. We went out last night. We went bowling at Splitsville. It was so much freakin fun. I kicked his ass in the first game and then he beat me in the second. We had a bet on the second game. So it looks like he gets to tie me up and blindfold me in the near future. Kinky. Fun. Can't wait. I haven't a clue where things are headed with him...I'm not sure I really care...I just like hanging out with him. So much fun. So funny.

I have no manplans lined up the rest of the week except with David on Sunday. I kind of like it.

David came over last night.

So David came over last night randomly. It was nice. Man, what is wrong with me. I feel it already two dates in and I'm starting to lose interest. What is wrong with me. Here's this handsome, successful fit man that finds me absolutely adorable and I'm like eh I think I'll keep him around but I'd also like to keep playing the field. Which I think he is going to have none of. We watched a movie. Fooled around a bit. No sex. I think I'm going to hold out on the whole sex thing. We're hanging out tonight. Fun.

I'm hanging out with Hooman tomorrow.

Breakfast Robert texted last night to have lunch today. We missed each other between texts and calls. I think we are going to shoot for later in the week. One thing that annoys the freakin shit out of me about him is he says Ciao. Who the fuck says that...seriously?!

Breakfast Robert and Bouncing David

So I went out on Saturday night with my sisters and some friends. We went to the Hard Rock late night and I spotted a hottie I felt the need to know. We kept looking at each other but neither of us took the initative to chat it up. So I thought it was a lost cause when he left. A couple hours later we went to the Green Room for breakfast...and there he was sitting eating breakfast by himself. So my drunk awesome ass plopped down right next to him. He about fell over. No idea what the crap we talked about. But we exchanged numbers. We talked about doing dinner this week. We shall see if anything comes of that.

So I've been chatting it up with Bouncing David for about a week or so on POF (I know imagine that). Well we met yesterday. He came by and picked me up. We drove all over town going to places that were closed...it was kind of funny. We ended up at Starbucks in south Tampa. Great conversation so we took the date to Gameworks in Ybor. Really we had fun. So we went back to his place and I ended up spending the evening. Nothing happened sexually but my god did we want to fool around. But I'm going to hold off for as long as possible with this one. He's cool. He's seriously looking for long term (or so he says). He drives a fat car and has a big house. We are going to hangout tomorrow evening after his hockey game. I see possible good things with this in the future...if I can lay off the other guys.

Hooman was out of town all weekend with his brother and father so I didn't chat with him at all. In fact I sort of forgot about him until he called last night while I was with David. I guess we'll probably try and get together this week sometime.

Blah day.

So I went to the beach with my friend Sean yesterday. I'm paying for it now. Super burnt. Not awesome. Sean's awesome...but I'm pretty sure he has an interest in me beyond one I have for him. Not sure I like that very much. He's adorable. Cute. Funny. Tatted up. But he's Sean. Just not in to him like that. Poor guy.

I did go day drinking with Sean on Tuesday. I got kind of hammered and ended up meeting up with Eric. Eric and I have been chatting it up for like three months now. Super long time in chatting it up world. I'm glad I met him. He's freakin cute. But I feel as though there is something off with him. Isn't there always. So we met at Green Iguana for a few drinks. Then moved on to another Green Iguana. Then we decided it was a good idea to smoke some pot. Retards. So we ended up at The Rack in South Tampa. Such a bad idea. We were so freakin drunk and stoned we got super paranoid. I'm pretty sure everyone could smell the weed on us and just kept looking at us. It was weird. He dropped me off and I like ran inside. It was fucking weird. But he's still interested in seeing me and me him. So who the fuck knows.

Hooman came over last night with some aloe to help me out. I have no idea what to think of this one. He's like interested but not interested. I have no idea what the fuck is going on. He like calls and texts but doesn't jump at the chance to hangout. Who knows maybe this is for the better...I'm sure I'd be bored or whatever if he was way into me. Like I think his family is in town now but I have no idea. We texted a couple times today but again not much. I'm going to hold off and let him text me next. I know that sounds soooo fucking childish but I'm over being the one chasing him. Blah.

Obviously I didn't hangout with Daddy Joey on Wednesday...he had a cold. Or so he said. Whatever. I don't care.

Um...so...yeah

So Hooman bailed on me last night. He said his locked his keys in his car. Not real sure how I feel about this. Two days in a row. I'm hoping it's really just an unlucky chain of events. He texted twice last night but I chose to ignore them. I'm annoyed. I texted him this morning to say good morning and I hope he has a better day. He texted back good morning and that the sun has risen so it's a good day. I think I'm going to back off until he wants to hangout. I'm not sure if I should make myself available or just kind of play aloof. Fuck. I hate this.

I'm supposed to go out with Bongo Joe tonight but I'm pretty sure I'm just going to blow him off and call it a day. I was chatting up my roommate last night about the boy situations. She always has good insight. Gives it to me straight. She said to lose Bongo. Take it down a notch with Hooman...but to be honest with him and let him know I'm a little worried about how thins happened the other night. That I don't want to be just a hook up. See what he says. She said to keep enjoying things with Stacey since I know what's to come of it...great sex.

Supposed to hangout with Joey tomorrow night. I kind of want to but I'm sure all he wants is a hook up. I'm not hooking up with him. Period.

I have a weakness for Stacey the Brit

Okay so a few updates. I'll start with Stacey the Brit came over last night and we had an amazing evening of sex, sex and more sex. He's seriously incredible. I don't understand why we don't do that more often. I mean it's probably the best sex I've ever had. I know he's not the relationship kind of guy and he knows I'm not interested in him like that. Makes it work really well. He did make a comment about I'm the closest thing to dating he's had in years...um...we fuck like onces every few months...that's weird. Ugh just thinking about the sex right now is driving me nuts. Can't wait until him and I run into each other again.

Okay onto the other men in my life. I went out with David on Friday night. He's adorable. Really sweet, drives a nice car, laughs at my jokes. We went to the Imporv to see Harland Williams (who is hilarious by the way). We went to a few bars after, had sushi. It was a great night. Although I'm afraid he may be a little on the retarded side of things. Seriously...like the short yellow one. Like he kept doing this thing with his hands that I found to be a bit odd. And I'm pretty sure he walks with a limp...which totally threw me for a loop. I mean it brings me back to the guy that had turrets...shouldn't you tell people these frickin things?!??!! Or stop dating online...I feel like it's lying. Anyway he wants to hangout again...not real sure how I feel about this.

On to Hooman. We hung out Saturday night. He's truly amazing. Cute. Intelligent. Funny. We really have an incredible time when we are together. But I'm feeling kind of weird about him because he's the boyfriend type of guy. I would want a relationship with him. I'm not sure how to do that or how I even feel about it. I mean if I don't hear from him all day my mind starts to wonder. That never happens...I usually don't give a shit what a guy is doing and the only time they usually pop into my mind is when they text me or call me. This guy has me thinking about him 24/7. I have no idea where his head is or if he even thinks about me throughout the day...and the fact that I give a shit about that is making me very uncomfortable. He made a comment that he'd like to hangout tonight...if that doesn't happen I'm really going to be disappointed. So back to Saturday night. He came over. We listened to music. Drank some wine. Then the kissing began. I just got chills thinking about it. He is so freakin passionate...it's been a while since I've felt this way with someone. I mean yeah Stacey is amazing in the sack but that's because he knows how to fuck. Hooman is PASSIONATE. Takes his time with a womans body. Ugh I'm out in public right now I need to stop thinking about this I'm starting to blush.

Okay so no idea where my head is at. Do I do relationship or do I do fuck around??? Oh the decisions to be made.

Okay so no idea where my head is at right now.

It's been an interesting few days

I went out with David on Friday and hung out with Hooman last night. It's been interesting to say the least. I'm pretty sure David is somewhat retarded...yes the short bus kind. And Hooman...well he's turned out to be a pleasant surprise. I have to run and will get into detail later. Just needed to put a smile out there. :)

Asian Mike.

Went out with Asian Mike yesterday. I'm not sure how I feel about him. I'm pretty sure there is no future there but we are going to do dinner sometime. I think he thinks it went really well. He kept saying things like if you meet my father this or that...it was a little weird. I think he's a younger version of Mark (speaking of Mark going out with him today for St Patricks day). Okay Asian Mike. He's a short little guy...about my height %'8. He works in a medical laboratory doing middle management type work. He hates his job but he's good at it. He makes good money and has great benefits so he's thinking about staying. But he did mention he could be perfectly happy renting scuba gear to tourists in the islands. That kind of made me smile. Oh to live so simply. He's covered in tattoos. I really am interested in seeing them. His body is incredible. But that's to be expected because that's the kind of kick I've been on. We'll shall see how long until this one goes to shit.

Was testing with Daddy Joey yesterday and he turned it super pervy super quick. I'm trying to turn that around. I'm not interested in sleeping with any of these guys anytime soon. I'm really coming to the realization that most guys run after getting it if you give it too quickly. I believe that's what happened with Vince. We haven't really spoken in a week. That's weird to me. I'm sure we'll see each other when I'm working in Orlando next month. Who knows.

So yes I'm going out with Mark today to celebrate St Patricks day. I'm not sure why. Well actually I know a lot of his friends are going to be there and we're friends so I think it's going to be a good time. It's better than going out with some random guy I've just met and hanging around a bunch of drunk people and making it weird. Days like this are friends days. Sooo it makes sense in my head.

I'm going out with Mr. David on Friday. I'm really looking forward to meeting him. He seems so sweet. He really seems like boyfriend material. Again, we shall see.

Daddy Joey...hello

Just got home from having coffee with Daddy Joey. Way better looking in person hands down. Not super jacked or anything. But handsome. Funny. Intelligent. I think he's interested in me. I'm certainly interested in spending more time with him. We got there are 830 and left at 11. Didn't even realize it was 11. That is a good sign.

He has a kid who is with him three or four times a week. He doesn't introduce his kid to any of the chicks he dates which is great. He works for his parents medical supply company as a marketing and sales rep.

I don't know. We shall see.

I'm going out with Asian Mike tomorrow at 730. Going to hang out with Mark on Wednesday for St. Patricks day. Going out with David on Friday. Working all weekend. Busy busy.

Drunken debauchery with Brian

So I went out with Chantel's friend Brian yesterday. We went up to Bahama Breeze for a few drinks around 5 which turned into getting home wasted at 2 am. No idea what the end of the night was like. Should have probably gone home after BB but noooooo I went to another bar with him. No idea. I know we kissed at the end of the night. I have no idea if it was any good. Ugh what do I get myself into.

I'm meeting Daddy Joey from POF tonight at Starbucks. Going out with Asian Mike tomorrow night for a drink. Meeting Tim the Brit sometime this week for lunch...probably on Wednesday. I'm supposed to see Bongo Joe this week...but I need to just end things with him already. We'll see. Mark wants me to go out with them on St Patricks day. I'm thinking about going. What the hell is wrong with me.

The end.

Alberto. Alllllberto. Aberrrrrrto.

Met Alberto yesterday. He came and picked me up. We had lunch. He took me home. It was a nice first date. He's a little bigger than I've been dating recently but that's not to say he's a fat ass. He's Hispanic. This is new to me. I pulled up in a bright red Firebird. That was not so hot. But he did mention that he's looking for a new car because that one is about to die. That is a plus. He's really sweet. Like I'm afraid I'd break his little hear sweet. He doesn't match my perfect guy list. So do I scratch him off now...or do I play with him a little. I'm not sure how these lists are to be used. Should it be an end all...or more of guidelines. I think I should get everything I want in a man.

Started up a dialog with David last night. Obviously from POF. He seems to have potential. We shall see.

Haven't spoken with Vince in a few days. I've decided to stop calling him. He can call me. Man...I hope he does.

Going to have lunch with Alberto.

Woot!

I suck at dating

So I was supposed to hang out with Asian Mike tonight but I chose to meet up with a girl friend and have a girls evening. I suck. I know he's going to be cool if he's not super short but for some reason I decided to have a girls night. Probably because I haven't had one in ages. Poor guy.

Busy girl

So I've been super busy with work this part week so dating hasn't been on the top of my list.

I did go see Vince Tuesday night in Orlando. We had a really awesome time. His home is beautiful. He cooks amazing. His body is ridiculous. His sex is yummy. Yes, this is too good to be true. I'm in super get skinny mode at the moment...it sounds like he likes to spend a lot of time in the sun during the summer and at my current physique I'm not so comfortable with that. I need to get a hard body...asap. Going to call my girl friend today who owns a gym and see what the fuck she can do for me.

I've been chatting it up with Alberto the Spaniard. He's so freakin funny. We have really great phone and texting conversation. I'm pretty sure we're going to try and get together sometime this weekend or early next week. Everything is there on the personality side of things...I'm just not sure if there will be a physical attraction. We shall see.

I'm meeting up with Asian Mike tonight for drinks. I'm supposed to hand out with Bongo Joe but in all honesty I think that's way over. I'm just over whatever was there.

Man I'm on an ethnic kick these days. We shall see.

ew

So little dick Andy sent me a message on facebook saying I'm not open and available enough for him and said he wasn't interested in dating anymore which is pretty much a weight off my back. Then I texted him Facebook really? He said he didn't owe me more. What a tool.

Vince canceled today. That really made me sad. I'm done with him. He said he'll take Tuesday off. But I know Tuesday isn't going to come.

Over all I'm going to say it was a shitty day when it comes to doods.

Vince...last chance buddy

So Vince and I were supposed to go out last night and yesterday he canceled. We rescheduled for this evening. If we don't see each other this evening I'm throwing in the towel. Period.

Mr. Perfect

So a good friend recently told me I should write out what it is I'm looking for in my Mr. Perfect. I had mentioned to her that although I do enjoy dating I think I'm ready to take a relationship to the next level. I think the word marriage actually passed through my lips. So here is what I have now...I'm sure I'll be adding to this list over time until I find him.

What I want in a man.

He must be taller then me.
He must have a great sense of humor.
Sarcastic.
Career focused and successful.
Athletic but not obsessed with his body.
Artistic but not too weird.
Musically inclined.
Intelligent but not arrogant.
Kind but not a push over.
Financially secure.
Handsome.
Must have a group of great friends.
Caring.
Decent listener.
Emotionally available.
Not self absorbed.
Minimal baggage both physical and mental.
Their family is important to them.
Cannot be straight edge.
Likes to hold hands in public.
Sexually satisfying and adventurous.
Must enjoy boating.

Stale.

Things are a bit stale at the moment.

I hung out with Andy the other night. I think it's safe to say I'm not really into him so much. He's not what I need in a man. Plus his penis is incredibly small. Blah. I think I just threw up in my mouth thinking about it.

Haven't hung out with Bongo Joe is a while. I think he thinks we're going steady...but we're not. I need to tell him. Not sure how.

Mark asked me to go on vaycay with him next month. I kind of want to just to get away. We'll see.

I went out with Hooman last night. He's adorable. But he's balding. Not sure how I feel about that. We had a few drinks, played pool, he kissed me good night. I felt like it was a little forced but it wasn't a bad thing. He leaves for vaycay Friday so he wants to hangout prior...not sure if that's going to happen.

I've been chatting it up with Asian Mike from pof the past few days. He's freakin hot. Great body. Tattoos. Good job. We'll see what happens there. He wants to get together sometime soon...maybe tomorrow night...maybe not.

So I think Vince is way too into his career to date. I mean we get along great. Our conversations are wonderful...but they are few and far between. We'll see. If our date on Friday doesn't happen then I'm going to throw in the towel.

drunk dialing...not awesome

So I got a bit tipsy last night and drunk dialed a few. No idea what was said. Andy seems to think we're on the right track. No idea what the fuck I said. He even asked me this morning if I remembered our conversation. I lied. I said I did. No idea what the fuck was said.

Looked through my call log. Called Vince too. NO FUCKING CLUE what I said to him. I asked him if I said anything dumb and he said not at all. Fuck.

Holy disappointing

Hello disappointing date last night. Met James last night. I cannot tell you how disappointing that was. On the phone we clicked awesome...had a lot of fun throwing shit back and forth. In person...not so much. I think he has turrets. I don't know the etiquette for this but I feel as though you should tell someone that you have it before you meet...like a heads up. I mean if I had an extra thumb or leg growing out of my body I think I'd give someone the heads up. It was weird. Beyond the mild turrets he wouldn't shut the hell up. Blah. Blah. Blah. He kept talking about what he's going to do. Um...pretty sure he's unemployed and saying he's working on a documentary as a way to sound employed. I don't know the whole thing was really weird.

Not sure I'll hangout with him again.

Andye squared...blah...done

Yeah not sure I'm going to get over Andy calling me irresponsible. I'm okay with this.

Met a guy on POF who I ended up talking to online years ago. We are meeting tonight for coffee and going from there. He's a filmmaker, hairstylist, musician. Should be interesting.

Hanging out with Vince tomorrow. I hope that goes well.

Fuck Andy

So I got pulled over and was informed that my license is suspended from some shit that happened a few years ago. I asked Andy to come pick me up. He did. Then later today he told me he thinks I'm too irresponsible for him. Are you fucking kidding me...you're an unemployed 36 year old man who sends out a resume from day to day...fuck off loser.

On a better note...Vince called today. Woot.

you are who you hang out with

Not sure why this has taken me a few to figure out...but if you hang out with total douche bags then you yourself are probably going to be a raging douche. Just putting that out there. I'm starting to think that Andy could in fact be a raging douche. I'm just saying.

life

Ugh I'm staring to feel kind of bad about blowing off Bongo Joe. Marijuana by Tom Petty came on last night and it made me think of him. I'm a total jerk off. I feel the need to call or text but don't want him to think that there is actually anything that's going to come out of it. This is a first for me...actually feeling bad about jerking around a guy. If he just had his shit together he would have been fantastic...but I can't keep dating scumbags.

That's funny I say that. Andy is unemployed. He was laid off of his job that he had for 14 years. He's in the process of finding a new one. I may need to kick his ass to the curb too...but I'm going to play with him for a bit.

Fuck I was Facebook stalking today and went onto Kelly's page. The fucker is dating this fucking nasty ass chick that I did makeup for months ago. I almost fell on my face. Dood if that what he's attracted to then I have no idea what the fuck he was doing with me. She's fucking GROSS.

Um...I text Vince yesterday and asked if he forgot about me. He said no never that his kids wanted to stay up north for a few more days that they are here now and head back north on Tuesday. I'm going to leave him alone. If he's interested then he will get into contact with me. Man I really hoped he would have worked out. He was absolutely fantastic.

Put my POF profile on private right now. Too much on my plate and I don't want to fuck up something that could be good because I'm not responding to emails because I'm busy.

Andy Andie Andy

So I've hung out with Andy every day now since we met on Thursday. He really pissed me off Saturday night dragging me around to his shows (obviously from the last post). But I was kind of drunk and we talked about things. He apologized for being a douche even though I don't think he knows what he was really apologizing about. Anyway I went to work Sunday and he went to the fair with his friends. He came over spent the night. I'm not sure how I feel about everything. I mean we get along great. We're both incredibly attracted to one another. I just really think his friends blow ass hole. He just let to have lunch with them for one of their birthdays and he didn't invite me to join. Not real sure how I feel about this. I mean yeah we've only been dating a week or whatever but you just left my bed to go have lunch with a bunch of your girl friends that treated me like shit the other night...and you didn't even ask if I wanted to join. We'll see. That pissed me off a little so I sent out a bunch of texts to my girls to see what the fuck we're doing tonight. I see a little bit of chaos coming soon.

BLAH.

Not awesome Andy

I want to punch someone in the throat. So I go to 2 shitty shows with Andy tonight. The first show was total crap and the second his friends totally blow monkey balls. Not nice at all. Made me feel like a total schmuck. So he plays his show and at the end he comes up to me and asks if I can drive. Are you fucking kidding me. I've been doing Andy shit all day and you want me to sober up and drive your fucking ass home. FUCK YOU.

Andie Squared

Whirl wind coming through.

So I met Andy off POF...I know surprise surprise. We hit it off and I have spent the past 48 hours in la la land. He's my Mr. Perfect. He's handsome but not obviously hot...he's not a fat kid of a skinny man. Has incredible tattoos. A great smile. Killer eyes. Is a musician. Has the most adorable pet rabbit...Fever. Is Vegan...which is a little weird but whatever. He cracks me up like it's his job. So funny. So awesome.

We went out day drinking on Thursday. Then last night I came over we watched a movie, hung out, chatted it up a lot. Tonight I'm going to his show...yeah he plays music...meow.

Weirdo...

So Bongo Joe likes to send pics of himself a lot. It's a little weird but I usually just chuckle for a hot minute and then move along with my day. Well he just sent me a text saying he was just thinking about me. I said only good stuff I hope. He said yeah that he was just thinking about kissing you and eating Reese's off your belly. Cute I thought but then he sent me a pic of Reese's on his desk. Ew like he was really sitting there at his desk daydreaming about eating Reese's off me for real not just a funny little thing that just popped into his head. Ugh I'm going to have to get rid of this one asap...I think he has super creepy potential. I'm not down.

Boo on family emergencies

So I didn't get to spend time with Vince last night because he had an emergency with is children. I was totally bummed. He wants to reschedule for Valentines Day. I like that. He said his children are going to be with him for a while. He wants to introduce me to them but just as friends. Which I understand. He said that their mother goes through men like underwear so he wants them to have a sort of stability when they're in Florida. He also called me honey which was really cute. Man I really hope something great comes of this.

Went and hung out with Bongo Joe last night. I wasn't going to but I was bored and that freed up my evening tonight. So went over there. He made sushi again. He's on this weird sushi kick but whatever it's kind of quirky and cute. He wrote a song for me and sang it to me last night. Man there is nothing hotter then a man singing to you. I really couldn't help but smile while he was singing. So cute. So sweet. The sex is great. Very passionate and very me oriented. He did annoy me a bit while we were watching a show. He kept telling me the plot line and about the characters. I could have really cared less about what was going on I just wanted to relax and maybe snooze.

Man I couldn't be dating more polar opposites. Vinces in older, charming, handsome, financially secure, a business man. Bongo Joe is my age, weird, quirky, poor, artist, sensual, creative guy. I'd like to make Vince my one and only at the moment.

Mark keeps texting. I told him our last date really turned me off and that I'm not interested in hanging out. He said he's upset that he's not going to see me. Blah.

Okay that's it for now. No real guy stuff going on this week until Valentines Day on Sunday. I can't wait. <3

Hello Mr. Vince...

Had the most fantastic time with Vince the other night. He's a freakin stud. He's the kind of guy you bag and don't let go of. He's tall, handsome, successful, funny, charming, sweet. We had such a great time. One of the best first dates I've been on in a long time.

He picked me up for dinner (he rolled up in a nice ass M6). We went to Ocean Prime which is one of the nicer restaurants in the Tampa area. We were there for a few hours eating, drinking, laughing. He's really so funny. We had a lot in common. Then the booze kicked in and the rest of the night is a bit of a blur. We left OP and went over to Bar Louie. We had a few drinks and decided to call it a night. He got a hotel and against my sober better judgment I stayed the night with him. We did not have sexy time but we did fool around a bit. I mean if I had to throw in the towel now I would and marry this guy. SERIOUSLY I couldn't imagine a flaw that would make me want to give this up.

I am going over to his place this evening. He's cooking dinner. We're going to drink a little wine, watch a movie and just enjoy the evening. I really do hope tonight goes really well. Fingers crossed.

I was out in Sarasota on Sunday for a project and met up with one of the POF guys I've been talking with for some time. He was absolutely adorable but in a gay best friend way. I seriously think he's a flamer. He's going to be in Tampa next weekend and wants to do something on Valentines Day. This is going to sound horrible but I cannot hold my v-day for him. I'm really hoping Vince wants to do something.

I hung out with Bongo Joe Sunday evening when I got back into town. He's so much fun but a total scumbag. I like hanging out with him and will continue to do so until something better is firm. Wow that sounds horrible. I introduced him to a few friends and don't believe I will do that again.

I'm working a grand opening for a friends business next weekend and I'm hoping Vince will want to go with me. :)

Yep...I gots me some butterflies. I hope he doesn't turn out to be too good to be true like Aaron.

And I fell asleep...

So I didn't end up going out last night I fell asleep and decided that trying to get ready after a long nap just wasn't going to happen.

I'm going on a date tonight with a man named Vince. I met him online. He's coming to Tampa from Orlando. We're going to hit up Ocean Prime for dinner and drinks. He's tall, handsome, successful, secure, funny. I really hope things go well tonight. He seems like what the mature version of me would date. I want to look my best but it's freakin raining out today...I hope things go well.

I'm going to play disk golf with Joe tomorrow. I have no idea what this even means...but we shall see. He changed his fb from single to in a relationship. Not real sure how I feel about that. It kind of rubs me the wrong way. This boy better sing to me fast to keep my attention. lol

I'm meeting Sarasota Matt for drinks after my shoot in Sarasota on Sunday. I guess we'll watch the first half of the Super Bowl then I'll be on my way. Not sure I want to deal with the drunk asses after.

Going to have dinner with Tolga on Monday. Should be good times. I wish he weren't so soft spoken...it's difficult to speak with him on the phone.

Busy weekend. Should be good times.

Mr. Mark...I'm done...for real

So I met up with Tolga yesterday for coffee. He's an absolute doll. Very soft spoken, handsome, nice body, educated, foreign (like you couldn't tell from the name), career focused. I'm under the impression that he has a bit of money. Which is always a bonus. He does have two children...which is new for me. Never dated a man with children. One he has full custody of. My only concern is he may not be super exciting...which could be a problem. But we shall see. Aww...he just texted me while I'm writing this seeing if I wanted to do something on Saturday.

So my dumb ass went and hung out with Mr. Mark last night. Such a dumb idea. He sucks. I really think I'm done with him. He has way too many emotional issues.

Going to see Joe play at open mic night tonight...I think. May just take a night off.

Fun...but...

So Andrew came over last night and it was a lot of fun. We made sushi which was fun something new for me. Then we smoked a bit and watched a really shitty movie. He is no longer allowed to choose a movie. The sex is insane with him...he's so sensual and really knows how to touch a woman. He's funny. He's smart. We talked a little about where we see ourselves in a the future (not as a couple but as individuals with our goals). He really had dreams of being a famous musician. Which explains why he's not too far along is his professional career (which is a major issue for me...I need someone with a career and goals). He wants a family and all that fun stuff. He wants to travel. I'm not sure if he's the right one for me though. My brother in law stopped by yesterday for a moment so he met him. He said no way get rid of him asap. Great.

I'm meeting Tolga for coffee this afternoon. I canceled on him yesterday because I wasn't in the mood to get ready and entertain. Mark wants me to come over tonight. I may. We'll see.

I hope my date is still on for tomorrow night with Noah. He hasn't called or sent an email. Fingers crossed.

hmm...Andrew

Went out with Andrew last night. We went to Green Iguana. It was a little weird at first but once the booze kicked in we had a great time. He did talk a lot about himself once again but I really think it's just because he's insecure. He's really cute. We're supposed to hangout again on Friday...if something better doesn't come up I'll be there. Wow that sounds horrible.

Tonight Joe is coming over and we're making sushi. So much fun. I really couldn't stop thinking about him last night. I texted him telling him that, I facebooked him...ugh I'm a mess. No more booze for this girl.

I'm meeting Talgo for coffee in a bit. I have no idea where it's going to go.

Really excited to hangout with Noah on Thursday. It's either going to be amazing or horrible. I'm hoping for amazing.

Joe, Andrew, Noah, Tolga...Josh.

Busy week.

So Joe and I hung out again on Saturday. But we were a drunken mess of crap that shouldn't have been hanging out. Bad decisions were made. I had a nice time. I like him. We're hanging out tomorrow...we're learning how to make sushi and watching a movie. Random.

So I went out with my sister, her husband and their good friend Josh last night. We went to Capital Grill...he proposed to me. Sooo embarrassing. Long story behind that I don't want to get into at the moment.

Met Andrew today for lunch. He seemed to only be interested in himself. I'm going to chalk it up to being nervous. We're going out tonight...we'll see how things go. He's cute but weird. I don't know.

I'm meeting Tolga for coffee tomorrow before Joe comes over.

Doing horror movie night with Noah Thursday night. I'm supposed to go to Joe's open mic night...but I've been wanting to meet Noah for a while now.

We shall see.

Incredibly awesome or cheesy...jurys still out.

So I went out with Joe last night. It was pretty much amazing...I think.

Okay so we started by meeting to run. I'm trying to be a runner...he is a runner. It didn't go all that awesome. Actually I felt like a fat kid next to him. I could barely run 1/4 mile before taking a break...and he was like oh 5 miles let's do it. Ugh. So I learned my lesson...stop being a fat fuck. lmao. Sooooooo fucking embarrassing.

Okay so after we ran we went back to his place. He cooked dinner, I took a shower, we ate, talked about shit, drank a few beers, smoked a bit of weed, headed to the beach. This is where the I'm not sure if it were cheesy or awesome thing comes into play. So we go out to the beach and chill. He brings his guitar and starts playing for me. He was incredible. I mean I've dated musicians in the past but nothing like this. He played his guitar and sang to me. It was seriously melt in my pants fucking fantastic. But it felt like he'd done this a million times. Like I could feel my panties dropping but I need to take a deep breath and realize what was going on because he was way too smooth at it. So we chilled on the beach. Talked... a lot. He played a lot. We laughed a lot. It was cool. We kissed but I felt like it wasn't the most amazing first kiss. Man I really wished it were. But then again had it been the panties probably would have dropped. Oh I forgot to mention while we were jogging we ran into a girl he went on a date with and she felt the need to say HELLO...loud and clear. So he had to tell me story with her. He deleted his POF account last night..which kind of makes me think he may really like me but at the same time make me think he's nuts...um crazy pants Kyle did the same thing. We shall see.

I really am at a loss for words about last night. No idea what to think. I mean I was like holy fuck me this is awesome. He's incredibly cute, can sing like a god, plays guitar...like personal concert. Kind of like John Mayer or Jason Maraz thing going on. It was too hot. But then again he has no money and works a shit job that doesn't pay him much. I feel like music is where his heart is...and I truly believe he's good enough to do something with it but not sure if that happens in real life.

I'm going to the movies with Andrew tomorrow. He's an incredibly hot musician I met on POF. He's talk, dark and handsome. I'm sure there will be something wrong with him. Going to hand out with Stacey on Monday. I'm thinking Joe Monday evening...he wants to go see some horror movie. I don't know...we'll see.

Ugh. I love and hate dating.

crazy pants

So Kyle turned out to be a total psycho. After a week of dating he asked me if I was worth the risk. And then he posted all over facebook about how he doesn't know if the risk he's dealing with is worth the return. I don't know it totally rubbed me the wrong way. Then I was busy and he started calling me crazy because I couldn't get back with him right away. I don't know that went to shit real quick. He started texting me crazy shit like he's not just looking for a fuck buddy and that he wants someone mature who can deal with feelings. I don't get it. But I guess it's good he showed his true colors off the bat. I cannot do crazy.

I did meet a new guy from POF Joe. He's a lot like me. Smart, funny, a little odd, smokes pot occasionally, plays music. He's adorable. We'll see what happens with him. Our first date was at Bahama Breeze. We had a few beers (I actually paid for my half which was a bit odd...but worth it). Then we went and smoked a bit. It got weird but that's because we were hella stoned. We've talked on the phone a bit since our date. We are going running together Friday evening...then we may go chill on the beach or something. We'll see.

I met Chantels friend Sean yesterday. He's so fucking annoying. I really don't want to see him again beyond a friend level. SOOOOO ANNOYING.

Okay that sums up the men of the moment. I'm supposed to see Mark this evening but I may just stay at my moms house tonight. Oh and I'm going on a date with George tomorrow evening. He's been after me for over six months now. I figure I'll give him a try.

:)

Things have been going well with Kyle. We have a dinner date this evening. He's really sweet...but I'm not sure if I'm ready to be a one guy kind of girl. We'll see how this pans out.

Mark keeps texting me. I got I miss you yesterday. I told him I'd call...but then I didn't. I hope he gets the hint.

I'm possibly meeting a guy from POF for coffee in the a.m. He's from Sarasota and in town for the weekend. I'm heading to Orlando tomorrow so I'm hoping coffee works out. I'll be in Sarasota for work on the 7th so I may end up seeing him then.

That'll all I have at the moment.

Oh men crack me up

No idea what to do about Mr. Mark. He's a fucking retard. I've told him over and over I'm not interested in being in a relationship with him. So I get a text from him today saying that when I get back in town we need to spend more time together. Maybe go on vaycay. Seriously...I'm going to have to be a bitch.

Spent last night with Kyle. He cooked me dinner, we watched movies, chatted. He's a good one I tell ya. I'm sure I'll screw it up or get bored.

Side note. Men like to take photos of their cocks and send them a pic mail. Two cocks one day. Too funny.

Hello Kyle

So I met Kyle from POF last night. Much better looking in person then his pictures. I refer to him as the average guy. He's 40, tall, chubby and cute. He owns his own scuba store where he sells scuba gear and certifies people in scuba. Kind of odd being I don't go in the water. We had a really nice time. He's so incredibly funny.

We met at the Bier Garten. Had a few beers. Then we went back to his place. I spent the night. We had a nice day together. Went to lunch. He's so freakin nice. Really sweet. But not a total pushover. He wants a long term relationship. We shall see. I'm going over tomorrow for dinner (he's cooking me dinner...two gold stars).

Stacey asked me to come over tonight. I said no...I'm not going to be available every time he asks me to come over. Mark wanted me to come over and watch football today. I didn't go. I was supposed to meet this guy Mike from POF today...but I didn't pick up the phone. I'm awesome.

Looking forward to spending time with Kyle tomorrow.

Seriously want to stab an ice pick through my ear..

Fuck. So I met this guy Anthony on POF. He's hot, tattoos, plays music, great body, great face. He's a freakin nut job. I just got off the phone with him after an hour and a half conversation and I about threw the phone across the room. I literally tried to get off the phone with him for 45 minutes but he kept saying oh this bullshit that bullshit. Then he had me check out his website for auto detailing. I don't give a fuck about your god damn website. Then he had me look him up on youtube. Yeah him playing to guitar by himself at practice. Not even like cool on stage rock star shit. Freakin crap. I will NEVER pick up the phone when he calls again. So he's talking the whole freakin time because those are the kinds of guys I seem to attract. He kept going on about this and that. He's in Orlando right now because he wasn't sure where he wanted to move. But him and his roommate are moving to North Port (which isn't anywhere near me). Oh and his roommate is 18. The man's 40! Oh and his ex girlfriend that he just broke up with was 18 too. WTF. This guy hasn't a clue that he's a total mess of shit. Ugh!

Phew okay had to get that off my chest. I seriously wanted to start screaming you are a freakin loser I don't care about all the "cool" people you hung out with once upon a time. I don't care that you just "liquidated" your assets and the only vehicle you have right now is your work van. You're full of horse shit you loony tune.

Ugh. Okay off that horse. I talked with a really nice man named Kyle today on the phone. Of course I met him on POF. He's 40, owns his own scuba shop, has a kid, is divorced, isn't the most handsome man on earth but there's something about him. Incredibly funny. I'm supposed to meet him Monday.

Meeting Mike from POF tomorrow for dinner. He's a motivational speaker or some shit like that. He's cute but I don't think we're going to click. But I'm interested in finding out. :)

Bart! Old school internet crush reappears

So Bart a man I met on myspace years ago...before myspace was big and well before facebook came to being. We used to talk online and did so for months. We met once or twice but that was that. Well on POF last night I get a message from him. I almost fell over!! I could not believe he was actually there in my inbox. The internet is a very small place. I'm still floored that he emailed me on there.

Here are our emails...from last to first.

From: ***** (View Profile)
Subject: RE:RE:RE:hi :) Sent Date: 1/12/2010 11:58:00 PM

Ditto. :D

From: ********* Maximus (View Profile)
Subject: RE:RE:hi :) Sent Date: 1/12/2010 11:56:21 PM

Likewise sweets! 727.***.****
Now i can go to sleep with a smile on my face. You made my day....lol


From: ****** (View Profile)
Subject: RE:hi :) Sent Date: 1/12/2010 11:53:45 PM


Yeah anytime you need a makeup session you just let me know. lol

Wow that's probably the best name I've heard in a long time...beautiful.

That's right it was...Catches or something like that...right?? I'm seriously in shock right now...Go POF!

Yes...let's play catch up...give me a call or shoot me a text anytime 321.***.****.

From: ****** Maximus (View Profile)
Subject: RE:RE:RE:RE:RE:RE:hi :) Sent Date: 1/12/2010 11:50:14 PM


Wow! Impressive :) Good for you Andie! Maybe I will come by for a make up session one day...lol

Nothing much has been happening in my life since my divorce. Raising my 4 year old daughter on my own. Her name is Scarlett Krina (Red Lilly). Other than that, I work for a medical software company in Clearwater. And in my spare time I still like to hang out with friends and travel, and play soccer.

I still cannot believe it's been so long. I think the last time i saw you was at this restaurant in new port richey...on the water.......crap i forgot it's name.

Would love to catch up one of these days with you. I always thought you were one cool chick.


From: ****** (View Profile)
Subject: RE:RE:RE:RE:RE:hi :) Sent Date: 1/12/2010 11:43:14 PM

Yeah I moved from Orlando as well.

How do you enjoy being a daddy? How olds your child? Boy/Girl?

Thank you Bart...you look incredibly handsome like before. :)

I'm a makeup artist living in Tampa with a good friend.

What are you up to these days?


From: ***** Maximus (View Profile)
Subject: RE:RE:RE:RE:hi :) Sent Date: 1/12/2010 11:39:24 PM

I've been well too. I moved from Orlando. I got married, then divorced. And I am a single dad. Gotta love life! lol

Well...you look astonishing as you did before...if not more.

So what do you do now?

--Bart


From: ***** (View Profile)
Subject: RE:RE:RE:hi :) Sent Date: 1/12/2010 11:36:58 PM

Yes! I think you're right...I was in Orlando at the time.

I've been well...yourself?


From: ******** Maximus (View Profile)
Subject: RE:RE:hi :) Sent Date: 1/12/2010 11:35:41 PM

Holy shit! It is you...isn't it??? That was so long ago. I think we talked on spam or something. I saw you and i was like...is it her or not...so I figured I drop u a line.

How could i forget your face....hell no.

How have you been?

--Bart



From: ***** (View Profile)
Subject: RE:hi :) Sent Date: 1/12/2010 11:30:53 PM


I know you!!

Okay let's try that again...I know we've talked online before...but a few years ago...I know that 2007 picture...Now where the heck do I know you from!?


From: ******* Maximus (View Profile)
Subject: hi :) Sent Date: 1/12/2010 10:08:11 PM


Hello :)

I stumbled upon your profile and I
must say it is rather
intriguing. I hope this finds you
well and in good spirits.
Perhaps we can talk
sometime................

TTYL,

--B--

P.S.

What brings you to this website if
I may ask?