Incredibly awesome or cheesy...jurys still out.

So I went out with Joe last night. It was pretty much amazing...I think.

Okay so we started by meeting to run. I'm trying to be a runner...he is a runner. It didn't go all that awesome. Actually I felt like a fat kid next to him. I could barely run 1/4 mile before taking a break...and he was like oh 5 miles let's do it. Ugh. So I learned my lesson...stop being a fat fuck. lmao. Sooooooo fucking embarrassing.

Okay so after we ran we went back to his place. He cooked dinner, I took a shower, we ate, talked about shit, drank a few beers, smoked a bit of weed, headed to the beach. This is where the I'm not sure if it were cheesy or awesome thing comes into play. So we go out to the beach and chill. He brings his guitar and starts playing for me. He was incredible. I mean I've dated musicians in the past but nothing like this. He played his guitar and sang to me. It was seriously melt in my pants fucking fantastic. But it felt like he'd done this a million times. Like I could feel my panties dropping but I need to take a deep breath and realize what was going on because he was way too smooth at it. So we chilled on the beach. Talked... a lot. He played a lot. We laughed a lot. It was cool. We kissed but I felt like it wasn't the most amazing first kiss. Man I really wished it were. But then again had it been the panties probably would have dropped. Oh I forgot to mention while we were jogging we ran into a girl he went on a date with and she felt the need to say HELLO...loud and clear. So he had to tell me story with her. He deleted his POF account last night..which kind of makes me think he may really like me but at the same time make me think he's nuts...um crazy pants Kyle did the same thing. We shall see.

I really am at a loss for words about last night. No idea what to think. I mean I was like holy fuck me this is awesome. He's incredibly cute, can sing like a god, plays guitar...like personal concert. Kind of like John Mayer or Jason Maraz thing going on. It was too hot. But then again he has no money and works a shit job that doesn't pay him much. I feel like music is where his heart is...and I truly believe he's good enough to do something with it but not sure if that happens in real life.

I'm going to the movies with Andrew tomorrow. He's an incredibly hot musician I met on POF. He's talk, dark and handsome. I'm sure there will be something wrong with him. Going to hand out with Stacey on Monday. I'm thinking Joe Monday evening...he wants to go see some horror movie. I don't know...we'll see.

Ugh. I love and hate dating.