drunk dialing...not awesome

So I got a bit tipsy last night and drunk dialed a few. No idea what was said. Andy seems to think we're on the right track. No idea what the fuck I said. He even asked me this morning if I remembered our conversation. I lied. I said I did. No idea what the fuck was said.

Looked through my call log. Called Vince too. NO FUCKING CLUE what I said to him. I asked him if I said anything dumb and he said not at all. Fuck.

Holy disappointing

Hello disappointing date last night. Met James last night. I cannot tell you how disappointing that was. On the phone we clicked awesome...had a lot of fun throwing shit back and forth. In person...not so much. I think he has turrets. I don't know the etiquette for this but I feel as though you should tell someone that you have it before you meet...like a heads up. I mean if I had an extra thumb or leg growing out of my body I think I'd give someone the heads up. It was weird. Beyond the mild turrets he wouldn't shut the hell up. Blah. Blah. Blah. He kept talking about what he's going to do. Um...pretty sure he's unemployed and saying he's working on a documentary as a way to sound employed. I don't know the whole thing was really weird.

Not sure I'll hangout with him again.

Andye squared...blah...done

Yeah not sure I'm going to get over Andy calling me irresponsible. I'm okay with this.

Met a guy on POF who I ended up talking to online years ago. We are meeting tonight for coffee and going from there. He's a filmmaker, hairstylist, musician. Should be interesting.

Hanging out with Vince tomorrow. I hope that goes well.

Fuck Andy

So I got pulled over and was informed that my license is suspended from some shit that happened a few years ago. I asked Andy to come pick me up. He did. Then later today he told me he thinks I'm too irresponsible for him. Are you fucking kidding me...you're an unemployed 36 year old man who sends out a resume from day to day...fuck off loser.

On a better note...Vince called today. Woot.

you are who you hang out with

Not sure why this has taken me a few to figure out...but if you hang out with total douche bags then you yourself are probably going to be a raging douche. Just putting that out there. I'm starting to think that Andy could in fact be a raging douche. I'm just saying.

life

Ugh I'm staring to feel kind of bad about blowing off Bongo Joe. Marijuana by Tom Petty came on last night and it made me think of him. I'm a total jerk off. I feel the need to call or text but don't want him to think that there is actually anything that's going to come out of it. This is a first for me...actually feeling bad about jerking around a guy. If he just had his shit together he would have been fantastic...but I can't keep dating scumbags.

That's funny I say that. Andy is unemployed. He was laid off of his job that he had for 14 years. He's in the process of finding a new one. I may need to kick his ass to the curb too...but I'm going to play with him for a bit.

Fuck I was Facebook stalking today and went onto Kelly's page. The fucker is dating this fucking nasty ass chick that I did makeup for months ago. I almost fell on my face. Dood if that what he's attracted to then I have no idea what the fuck he was doing with me. She's fucking GROSS.

Um...I text Vince yesterday and asked if he forgot about me. He said no never that his kids wanted to stay up north for a few more days that they are here now and head back north on Tuesday. I'm going to leave him alone. If he's interested then he will get into contact with me. Man I really hoped he would have worked out. He was absolutely fantastic.

Put my POF profile on private right now. Too much on my plate and I don't want to fuck up something that could be good because I'm not responding to emails because I'm busy.

Andy Andie Andy

So I've hung out with Andy every day now since we met on Thursday. He really pissed me off Saturday night dragging me around to his shows (obviously from the last post). But I was kind of drunk and we talked about things. He apologized for being a douche even though I don't think he knows what he was really apologizing about. Anyway I went to work Sunday and he went to the fair with his friends. He came over spent the night. I'm not sure how I feel about everything. I mean we get along great. We're both incredibly attracted to one another. I just really think his friends blow ass hole. He just let to have lunch with them for one of their birthdays and he didn't invite me to join. Not real sure how I feel about this. I mean yeah we've only been dating a week or whatever but you just left my bed to go have lunch with a bunch of your girl friends that treated me like shit the other night...and you didn't even ask if I wanted to join. We'll see. That pissed me off a little so I sent out a bunch of texts to my girls to see what the fuck we're doing tonight. I see a little bit of chaos coming soon.

BLAH.

Not awesome Andy

I want to punch someone in the throat. So I go to 2 shitty shows with Andy tonight. The first show was total crap and the second his friends totally blow monkey balls. Not nice at all. Made me feel like a total schmuck. So he plays his show and at the end he comes up to me and asks if I can drive. Are you fucking kidding me. I've been doing Andy shit all day and you want me to sober up and drive your fucking ass home. FUCK YOU.

Andie Squared

Whirl wind coming through.

So I met Andy off POF...I know surprise surprise. We hit it off and I have spent the past 48 hours in la la land. He's my Mr. Perfect. He's handsome but not obviously hot...he's not a fat kid of a skinny man. Has incredible tattoos. A great smile. Killer eyes. Is a musician. Has the most adorable pet rabbit...Fever. Is Vegan...which is a little weird but whatever. He cracks me up like it's his job. So funny. So awesome.

We went out day drinking on Thursday. Then last night I came over we watched a movie, hung out, chatted it up a lot. Tonight I'm going to his show...yeah he plays music...meow.

Weirdo...

So Bongo Joe likes to send pics of himself a lot. It's a little weird but I usually just chuckle for a hot minute and then move along with my day. Well he just sent me a text saying he was just thinking about me. I said only good stuff I hope. He said yeah that he was just thinking about kissing you and eating Reese's off your belly. Cute I thought but then he sent me a pic of Reese's on his desk. Ew like he was really sitting there at his desk daydreaming about eating Reese's off me for real not just a funny little thing that just popped into his head. Ugh I'm going to have to get rid of this one asap...I think he has super creepy potential. I'm not down.

Boo on family emergencies

So I didn't get to spend time with Vince last night because he had an emergency with is children. I was totally bummed. He wants to reschedule for Valentines Day. I like that. He said his children are going to be with him for a while. He wants to introduce me to them but just as friends. Which I understand. He said that their mother goes through men like underwear so he wants them to have a sort of stability when they're in Florida. He also called me honey which was really cute. Man I really hope something great comes of this.

Went and hung out with Bongo Joe last night. I wasn't going to but I was bored and that freed up my evening tonight. So went over there. He made sushi again. He's on this weird sushi kick but whatever it's kind of quirky and cute. He wrote a song for me and sang it to me last night. Man there is nothing hotter then a man singing to you. I really couldn't help but smile while he was singing. So cute. So sweet. The sex is great. Very passionate and very me oriented. He did annoy me a bit while we were watching a show. He kept telling me the plot line and about the characters. I could have really cared less about what was going on I just wanted to relax and maybe snooze.

Man I couldn't be dating more polar opposites. Vinces in older, charming, handsome, financially secure, a business man. Bongo Joe is my age, weird, quirky, poor, artist, sensual, creative guy. I'd like to make Vince my one and only at the moment.

Mark keeps texting. I told him our last date really turned me off and that I'm not interested in hanging out. He said he's upset that he's not going to see me. Blah.

Okay that's it for now. No real guy stuff going on this week until Valentines Day on Sunday. I can't wait. <3

Hello Mr. Vince...

Had the most fantastic time with Vince the other night. He's a freakin stud. He's the kind of guy you bag and don't let go of. He's tall, handsome, successful, funny, charming, sweet. We had such a great time. One of the best first dates I've been on in a long time.

He picked me up for dinner (he rolled up in a nice ass M6). We went to Ocean Prime which is one of the nicer restaurants in the Tampa area. We were there for a few hours eating, drinking, laughing. He's really so funny. We had a lot in common. Then the booze kicked in and the rest of the night is a bit of a blur. We left OP and went over to Bar Louie. We had a few drinks and decided to call it a night. He got a hotel and against my sober better judgment I stayed the night with him. We did not have sexy time but we did fool around a bit. I mean if I had to throw in the towel now I would and marry this guy. SERIOUSLY I couldn't imagine a flaw that would make me want to give this up.

I am going over to his place this evening. He's cooking dinner. We're going to drink a little wine, watch a movie and just enjoy the evening. I really do hope tonight goes really well. Fingers crossed.

I was out in Sarasota on Sunday for a project and met up with one of the POF guys I've been talking with for some time. He was absolutely adorable but in a gay best friend way. I seriously think he's a flamer. He's going to be in Tampa next weekend and wants to do something on Valentines Day. This is going to sound horrible but I cannot hold my v-day for him. I'm really hoping Vince wants to do something.

I hung out with Bongo Joe Sunday evening when I got back into town. He's so much fun but a total scumbag. I like hanging out with him and will continue to do so until something better is firm. Wow that sounds horrible. I introduced him to a few friends and don't believe I will do that again.

I'm working a grand opening for a friends business next weekend and I'm hoping Vince will want to go with me. :)

Yep...I gots me some butterflies. I hope he doesn't turn out to be too good to be true like Aaron.

And I fell asleep...

So I didn't end up going out last night I fell asleep and decided that trying to get ready after a long nap just wasn't going to happen.

I'm going on a date tonight with a man named Vince. I met him online. He's coming to Tampa from Orlando. We're going to hit up Ocean Prime for dinner and drinks. He's tall, handsome, successful, secure, funny. I really hope things go well tonight. He seems like what the mature version of me would date. I want to look my best but it's freakin raining out today...I hope things go well.

I'm going to play disk golf with Joe tomorrow. I have no idea what this even means...but we shall see. He changed his fb from single to in a relationship. Not real sure how I feel about that. It kind of rubs me the wrong way. This boy better sing to me fast to keep my attention. lol

I'm meeting Sarasota Matt for drinks after my shoot in Sarasota on Sunday. I guess we'll watch the first half of the Super Bowl then I'll be on my way. Not sure I want to deal with the drunk asses after.

Going to have dinner with Tolga on Monday. Should be good times. I wish he weren't so soft spoken...it's difficult to speak with him on the phone.

Busy weekend. Should be good times.

Mr. Mark...I'm done...for real

So I met up with Tolga yesterday for coffee. He's an absolute doll. Very soft spoken, handsome, nice body, educated, foreign (like you couldn't tell from the name), career focused. I'm under the impression that he has a bit of money. Which is always a bonus. He does have two children...which is new for me. Never dated a man with children. One he has full custody of. My only concern is he may not be super exciting...which could be a problem. But we shall see. Aww...he just texted me while I'm writing this seeing if I wanted to do something on Saturday.

So my dumb ass went and hung out with Mr. Mark last night. Such a dumb idea. He sucks. I really think I'm done with him. He has way too many emotional issues.

Going to see Joe play at open mic night tonight...I think. May just take a night off.

Fun...but...

So Andrew came over last night and it was a lot of fun. We made sushi which was fun something new for me. Then we smoked a bit and watched a really shitty movie. He is no longer allowed to choose a movie. The sex is insane with him...he's so sensual and really knows how to touch a woman. He's funny. He's smart. We talked a little about where we see ourselves in a the future (not as a couple but as individuals with our goals). He really had dreams of being a famous musician. Which explains why he's not too far along is his professional career (which is a major issue for me...I need someone with a career and goals). He wants a family and all that fun stuff. He wants to travel. I'm not sure if he's the right one for me though. My brother in law stopped by yesterday for a moment so he met him. He said no way get rid of him asap. Great.

I'm meeting Tolga for coffee this afternoon. I canceled on him yesterday because I wasn't in the mood to get ready and entertain. Mark wants me to come over tonight. I may. We'll see.

I hope my date is still on for tomorrow night with Noah. He hasn't called or sent an email. Fingers crossed.

hmm...Andrew

Went out with Andrew last night. We went to Green Iguana. It was a little weird at first but once the booze kicked in we had a great time. He did talk a lot about himself once again but I really think it's just because he's insecure. He's really cute. We're supposed to hangout again on Friday...if something better doesn't come up I'll be there. Wow that sounds horrible.

Tonight Joe is coming over and we're making sushi. So much fun. I really couldn't stop thinking about him last night. I texted him telling him that, I facebooked him...ugh I'm a mess. No more booze for this girl.

I'm meeting Talgo for coffee in a bit. I have no idea where it's going to go.

Really excited to hangout with Noah on Thursday. It's either going to be amazing or horrible. I'm hoping for amazing.

Joe, Andrew, Noah, Tolga...Josh.

Busy week.

So Joe and I hung out again on Saturday. But we were a drunken mess of crap that shouldn't have been hanging out. Bad decisions were made. I had a nice time. I like him. We're hanging out tomorrow...we're learning how to make sushi and watching a movie. Random.

So I went out with my sister, her husband and their good friend Josh last night. We went to Capital Grill...he proposed to me. Sooo embarrassing. Long story behind that I don't want to get into at the moment.

Met Andrew today for lunch. He seemed to only be interested in himself. I'm going to chalk it up to being nervous. We're going out tonight...we'll see how things go. He's cute but weird. I don't know.

I'm meeting Tolga for coffee tomorrow before Joe comes over.

Doing horror movie night with Noah Thursday night. I'm supposed to go to Joe's open mic night...but I've been wanting to meet Noah for a while now.

We shall see.