The effects

So I'm back home now. I've been chatting it up with a guy named Jack the past week or so. We have made plans to meet on Friday night...do dinner and a comedy show. I really want to be excited about him...he's cute, smart, funny, calm, cool...a lot like me personality wise...but I just can't get into it. I really think I'm starting to feel the effects of what Bill really did to me. A girl friend of mine owns a background checking company...I was in the middle of a conversation with him last night on the phone and all I could think about was is he telling me the truth, he's probably full of shit, no way...so in the middle of our conversation I texted my friend and asked her to run a check on him. She's doing that today. Fuck. I want to go back to my carefree freespirited nature that was before Bill. :(